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My 2011 resolution

2011-01-01T11:35:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK! hahaha. okay la, i know i declared this blog dead!
BUT...
I'm here just to post my first and last post of the year!

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION...:D

A few goals this year..

1) Get into NUS Science/Maths this year!

My ambition is to be a teacher. I really enjoy leading people, guiding them, changing their lives. Its really very fun and challenging. I don't know why many people say a teacher's job is tough and are against me being one. But I see it as a challenge really. A really fun and exciting challenge too! I really want our future young ones to enjoy school, enjoy lessons, not finding school a pain and homework a bore. The challenge of teachers is to make students feel happy studying. I have enjoyed studying certain subjects due to certain teachers. I feel that a teacher is successful not when his students score straight As, he/she is successful when his/her student looks at the timetable and says " YAY, its Mr Low's lesson again!" So yup, will achieve this somehow!:D

2) Love Jiaying, be there for her all the time, keep her happy always!

Okay, i know i have been rather fickle in my JC years. Liking from one girl to another. Often influenced by friends, i'm really quite a person whose decisions are often easily swayed by my friends. I'll change, i promise!:) But after these years, I realised there's this one girl who has been always in and out of my life, who has always been in my mind whether i was in or out of Innova. Even during the period where she steaded this guy, I somehow could not get her out of my mind. Selfish thoughts popped up, something along the lines that i was certain she would break up sooner or later. Although one side of me doesn't want that to happen because she will definitely be sadden by it! Ah, i don't know, love is sweet, bitter, sour and well... salty??(the tears..) I'll think positive from today. No more emoing over Jiaying! I'll only do things that'll make her happy and be happy that she is! Cause I've decided, I'll love this girl.

3) Get my driving liscense!

HAHAH i sooo want to drive! Keep procrastinating on signing up for my BTT! I WILL SIGN UP TODAY! heheh. All my friends are getting their liscense one by one.. even my cousin has gotten hers! I SOOO HAVE TO GET MINE SOOOON!:D

4) Go gyming and running consistently to keep fit!

okay, this is something i have been procrastinating too. I am super envious of people with nice bodies and super fit! People like Jchen and Alvin shall be my idol! hahaha. Shall ask Gabriel to teach me how to build up my body at the gym soon!:)

5) Pick up a new language!

I really think French is cool! or wait, German sounds cool too.. Many people ask me to learn Japanese with them, but I'm not really very interested. Haha. anyway, we'll see. :)

6) To be continued...:)

heheh

2010-05-09T18:33:00.003+08:00

it hurts..
but i finally decided to grow up!
i officially declare this blog dead!

!

2010-05-09T00:28:00.003+08:00

qm avoided the question!
maybe its true i guess.
don't care don't care don't care don't care!!
ARGH!

6more weeks to POP!
18 more months to ORD!
YES YES YES!!(((((((:
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY THING!
don't think about it!

hahah wierdo.

FUCK

2010-05-07T22:22:00.002+08:00

finally the weekend again! WOO!
pang seh my bunk mates cause i wanted to go back innova.
hahah, anyway, met up with sam and ks.
i SOOOOOO miss school days.
SOO miss days in INNOVA!
ah well, its the past already i guess.
GOTTA LEARN TO LIVE WITH THE SHITTY ARMY DAYS!
i sound like i really hate army!
but well, its really not that bad after all,
with great bunk mates!(:

ohoh, i saw her today! HEHEH!
though it was just a glimpse!

outfield next week!
man i soo hate outfields.
guess it will be over very soon!

i'm feeling wierd again.
i think i'm ignored again.
sian. i wish i'm back at innova!

sian

2010-05-02T18:36:00.002+08:00

never thought that i'd fall in love love love loveee..
but it grew from a simple crush crush crush crushhh..
OMG, i soo miss wed nights!
AHHH! Next sat! maybe??

BOOK-IN WHINE AGAIN!
MP has very little PT! but life is kinda boring..
lost my marksman and $200 due to an IA!
but i finally passed my IPPT!
i can almost smell my silver and $100!

dilemma! sms or not??
want to sms but don't want to be a nuisance!
how're you doing??
what are you going through now??
want to know...
HOWW???

sian

2010-04-30T22:13:00.003+08:00

2nd week down! 7 more to go.
MLM is in 2 weeks! sian, OUTFIELD!
soo hate outfields!

i think i like you again,
or i never really stopped liking you?

expressed interest for gombak!
HAHAH, slack?? i HOPE!!

2010-04-18T14:26:00.002+08:00

it hurts, having the feeling that you don't want to talk to me.
maybe i'm just thinking too much.
anyway, its fine, as long as you're happy!

i want you to do well!
are you just a student of mine?
i don't think so right?

wed was a blast man!
first time i enjoyed butter soo much!

booking in tmr to my new camp!
hope it'll be a good 20 months in MP!(:

oh i got rejected again! HAHAH
talk to mee!

heheh

2010-04-10T12:58:00.002+08:00

finally POPed!
1 week of block leave! woot! heh.
24km route march followed by GP, it was super tiring..
but i did it! all of us did it together!(:

finally a wed to go clubbing! can't wait!
heheh..
ohoh, went lan with the botaks yesterday!
tower defence is super fun!! want to play more soon!! HEHE!
i keep thinking of her.. thats so gay man! AHH! ((:

HA

2010-04-04T09:01:00.002+08:00

you are the thunder and i am the lightning....
omg, i'm so addicted to that now!
EH i wana watch clash of titans!!
book-in blues...
a mind filled with only you!

zz

2010-04-04T00:37:00.002+08:00

hmm, last 4 days till POP.
happy? yet hmm, i don't know.
i kind of gave up being upset of my army life.

i keep giving excuses to myself for being fickle minded!
i think.
i don't know la.
ah whatever.
all i know, i can't live my life for myself now.
i shall help you do well!
think of ways to help you improve, since army gives me lots of time to stone.
somehow i feel happy helping you.
being of use to you. okay that sounds abit wierd.
but yea, ask in, its like my only goal in life now.
you doing well. hmm.

guess i'm really into teaching,
perhaps the teacher career is fit for me.
haha, owell. maybe theres more to it than that...
even i'm not sure myself!

ah what am i typing.
sometimes i really want to talk to you, yet you don't reply,
then i wonder.. are you busy? or am i just a pain.
that feeling really sucks.

sian

2010-03-28T04:43:00.005+08:00

another 2 weeks have passed!
20 months and 2 weeks to go!
ok, i sound like i really hate NS and can't wait for it to be over..
wait, i think i do!

anyway, it was a shitty 2 weeks,
first was SITEST outfield.
i totally hate outfields.
didn't get a good 2 nights of sleep due to the super hard ground and my bad cough and a fever.
and well, managed to pull through the 2 days i guess..

the second week was kind of slack for me.
managed to get ATT B, but it caused me to miss my 16km route march!
that sucks, though i hate route marches too, i soo do no want to do the remarch after my POP.
speaking of that, POP is in 11 DAYS! woot, can't wait! BYEBYE TEKONG!

hmm, scrolling down my contact list..
i realised something.
it is a super long list, i have many many friends.
however, there is few, too few whom i can speak my heart out to.
few whom i wish to crap with,
very few whom can make me smile or bring my spirits up with just a sms.
thats why i keep bugging these few people during the past few weeks.
especially you, even though you are not free at times,
your encouragements really bring my spirits up! thanks!
i really really want to talk to you more often!
cause life have been shitty,
too shitty for me to survive through alone.
i know it may be irritating,
i'm sorry for disturbing you all.
but i really appreciate it,
you guys really made my past few weeks better,
i should really try to grow up.
learn to adapt faster..
so i'll not cause any more trouble for you guys.

2010-03-14T12:26:00.002+08:00

i really really hate NS!
i tried to get used to the lifestyle,
tried to like it,
so that time will pass faster.
BUT I REALLY CANT!

really feel super super sucky right now.
really really want to talk to you.
or YOU.
21 more months to go.
just kill me please.

sorry if i'm becoming a nuisance.
i really really only feel like talking to 2 people.
since one is literally impossible at the moment.
you are my only option.

26th! should i? should i not?
ah screw this life.
just let me die.

z

2010-03-07T11:43:00.002+08:00

i don't know what to feel.
its the same wierd feeling as friday after i got my results.
as in, i have already prepared for the worst.
so i wasn't sad, yet i wasn't exactly happy with my results.
i couldn't cry, yet i could not smile.
i really didn't know what to feel.
my results weren't good, but at least it could get me somewhere.
my dream to be a teacher isn't exactly hard to achieve.
but then again, i'm afraid of my fickle minded self.
will my passion last?
as if i major in sciences or teaching, i will have nothing to fall back on.
unlike if i study accounting or psychology in a private uni,
i still will have teaching to fall back on if i can't find a job or am not satisfied.
i really don't know what i should pursue.

everything seem to be on the down side for me.
i really don't know what to feel,
afraid of what lies ahead of me too.
even the immediate tomorrow, field camp.
some say its very tough, though many have gone through it.
someone once asked me, shouldn't guys be brave, not scared, not worried of what lies ahead.
its true to a certain extent i guess, but nope,
guys still feel scared, worried, uneasy all the time.
just that we don't show it, we hide it, and we still get it done in the end.
isn't that what all people do? girls or guys?
just that girls show their fear, their worries, their uneasiness, and have people to get it done together with them.
while guys, we normally conquer the fear, and get it done ourselves.

i once felt, NS is the toughest time of my life, and that i could not get through it without a motivation.
really, although i know i don't have a choice, i have to get used to the life, i have to get through it, i still have my down times.
especially during the toughest trainings,
the super long distances road marches with 20kg loads on your shoulder.
there are many times where my body tell me i'm tired, it hurts, my blisters, my aching shoulders.
but i knew i could not give up. i had to finish it.
i raked through my mind for all sorts of motivations.
tried all sorts of ways to make myself continue on, taking the next step.
echoing her name in my mind taking a step forward with every syllable.
really, this kind of life totally sucks.

field camp next week,
the toughest of the toughest times.
still haven't totally gotten over my shitty results..
unsure of my future, on my courses in uni, the working days after those.
i really don't know how i'm going to endure through this week.
but i know i have to.

though a guy keeps his fears, his worries,
if theres people to walk his fears with him, it'd definitely be better,
maybe some encouragement like "press on" would help,

really grateful to you, who was there to keep my mind off those shitty stuff,
although i would be happier if it was her instead. kidding!(:
nah, you are still someone really important to me.
a sister, someone whom i will be there for at all times no matter what happens.
you may feel otherwise but my stance will never change.

ah, i don't know what i can do.
i really want to hear your voice,
your encouragement.
i know you are facing shitty times too,
but i can't be there,
i don't know what i can do for you.
i really feel super useless, aimless, shitty, depressed, worried, afraid,
in short, i feel shit.

fel

2010-02-20T14:32:00.004+08:00

wonder when i will grow up. haha
yup. still as noob as ever.

7 more hours before reporting back to tekong!
sian, how to continue those trainings with pain all over my body.
blisters and all, legs, hands and all..
sian.
i want to say sorry,
yet i know its of no use,
i really don't know what to do.
i keep thinking and thinking but find no solution to this.
hopefully i will one day.

hehe

2010-02-16T01:15:00.003+08:00

after 4 days of hols and finally booking in again tmr.
it so feels like i just started my NS life.
the feeling sucks..
when will i ever get used to NS life!

really glad i got to meet her today.
wanted to club but didn't, ended up just drinking alittle.
HAPPY! hahaha.

hmm

2010-02-14T18:45:00.002+08:00

finally first bookout.
first week in NS wasn't the best, but i guess its manageable.
have been failing alot of things in there,
but i guess i'll work hard for the next 8 weeks and get my fitness up!
booking in on tues, tired, sianed yet a little excited.
ah well.

prepared the vday stuffs!
but no chance to meet you.
guess i'll use the alternatives!
Happy Vday!(:

walked chinatown last night with the guys and shiying.
first time i did it,
eyeopener i guess.
bet she was counting down somewhere too.

when you keep randomly thinking of her, missing her..
think of her when you are down or need motivation..
is that still only and infatuation?
will it die down after a while?
ah well, whatever.. all i want now is to finish my 22 months of NS.
as long as she is safe and happy,
all rest shall proceed slowly..

eh, freaking photo printer still can't work. HOW??

hehe

2010-02-04T20:09:00.002+08:00

happy birthday jiaying!(:
i thought i liked you,
i mean i do like you, as a really good friend, as a sister..
i'm a guy who likes it when i am depended on..
hahah, sounds weird.. oh well..

many people keep asking me, even sherilyn last night..
why do i like her?
i didn't answer her, partly cause it was kind of sudden.
and well, it would be weird, as they are really good friends.
i finally understand.
i like her, cause i'm happy when she's around..
her cheerful and carefree nature,
never fails to touch your heart,
make you smile,
i'm not saying this cause i'm blinded by love or whatever.
you would understand if you are her friend and hang out with her.

i never dared say this before but i'm really sure,
she's the one.
she's the one i'll be happy as long as she is happy.
i mean really, maybe i don't know her well enough,
but she's really a nice and great girl.
only thing is she enjoys clubbing which is nothing wrong..
i also enjoy clubbing,
but her going there often worries others i guess.
especially me, hearing all the stories from others,
after a girl gets drunk and stuff..
but well, i believe she knows what shes doing and know her limits when drinking.
and she often goes with a whole lot of trusted friends who would protect her.
so i guess its kind of a relief.

the current me sucks.
i want to improve myself,
physically, mentally, financially.. basically in whatever way i can.
then i would have the fullest confidence to go all out after her.
yes, i know she's the one. i'll wait till i am ready.
as well as when she is.

NS starts tomorrow.
i'm scared. but well, its for the country.
my family, friends, and most importantly her & myself.
i'm going to take this few months seriously and improve myself!
will not get to use the computer much,
will blog whenever i can.

i really hope you will just stay happy and safe!
may god bless all of us.

zz

2010-02-03T01:48:00.002+08:00

2 more days!
somehow i don't care already! i think..
i'm scared! what is going to happen in the next 2 years!
she hates me, she hates me not..
she hates me, she hates me not..

lame shit!
hope these 2 years will prove it all!
BYE ALL!

...

2010-01-31T17:16:00.003+08:00

even after 2 people know they love each other,
still so many problems arise..
i always like lending a listening ear to my friends,
hearing them tell me about their rs.
the problems they face,
they happy times they share.
others enjoy romance movies and dramas, where it always ends with a happy ending,
i enjoy them too,
but i definitely enjoy these real life experiences even more!
not because i'm kaypo, i also really do care for my friends!

i don't know why i keep thinking of you.
others say this is a crush, an infatuation.
that it will not last..
but i really don't know..
i keep thinking of you, i miss you dearly when i've not seen you for so long..
the questions people ask me,
like why do i like her? do we have anything in common?
is it just a crush?
even questions that i ask myself..
how long will i like her? can i like her forever?
will i just fall for another princess after a while?
I REALLY DON'T KNOW!
I REALLY REALLY DON'T KNOW!
all i know is i am happy when i think of her.
i want to see her smile, i want her to be happy.
i will do anything as long as she's happy.

perhaps these 2 years will show it.
if i can still love her after this 2 years,
i'll do more after that..

although it may sound abit of a loser..
i'm scared.. i'm not sure what will happen for the next 2 years,
a new lifestyle, others say its tough,
some say its enjoyable,
i personally accept both and think it would be fine as long i get used to it.
but still, i can't help it but to feel scared.
its normal right? like before you take an injection,
you'll feel afraid of the pain..
but during the process, you are braver, you are able to take the pain.
and its not too scary afterall!(:
hope NS would be the same..

i really really miss you.

2010-01-28T23:57:00.003+08:00

phuture was imba last night..
SUPER FUN!

it really hurts to miss someone so dearly..
and for a guy who likes to think too much..
it sucks.
i really want to meet you once more before next friday..
i keep getting the feeling that i won't get to see you for the next 2 years.
and when i come out,
you'll be attached and it'll be a whole new you..
omg, i sound like i'm going to jail or something.
but yea, NS is basically a prison.
AH,crap!

zz

2010-01-26T20:02:00.001+08:00

the feeling of jealousy really sucks..
it hurts yes it hurts..
stop ignoring me please..:(

wonder when will these emo posts stop.. soon i guess..
feb 5th is coming..

sian/

2010-01-26T00:24:00.001+08:00

rama is totally right..
but i dont know how to start it.

it hurts.. it really does..

HAHAH

2010-01-24T16:30:00.004+08:00

went bugis yesterday with BOB WANG.HAHAH.
yea, was supposed to go to the library to borrow some books.
since i haven't visited iluma, we decided to go for a stroll.
ate some ice-cream! 7 bucks! but it was quite nice.
was joking with him, next time i ever buy it will be when i'm on a date with her!
and he added some gross stuff, what sharing it with her when she has licked it or something, ah he's full of crap.. LOL!

but its quite a cool place!
he was telling me about the cheap jap buffet there, about how many crabs he ate..
shall try it out next time!((:
oh ya, and he went on and on about eh this one not bad, eh pretty!, see,see!..
if only she was there, i would agree!HEH(:

went over to the lib, got some books,
then we trained back to bishan for some so called famous chicken rice near kwok's place.
i felt it was average.
bought some dark chocolate from shopnsave..
ohoh, i have to get the royce chocs soon!(:

every girl is a princess...
every princess has a prince who is always there to make her smile and stay happy!((:

sian.

2010-01-22T21:56:00.002+08:00

the feeling when tmr's the alvl,
the feeling when an exam is tmr and you are not sure if you have prepared enough for it..
the feeling when you know something will come tmr..
but you are not sure if you are ready and prepared for it..
NS is in 2 weeks! OMG.
I'm so not ready yet.. wonder what will happen inside man..
OKAY, thats not the point of this post..

tmr is SAT! SAT! SAT!
and she is taking it..
she is scared, uncertain, all the feelings i stated above..
i want to do something, but i can't do anything!
useless idiot!
AHH! why am i worried and uneasy like i'm the idiot taking the exam!
gay shit!

zz

2010-01-17T01:30:00.001+08:00

FAILED AGAIN!
how many times was it already..
3rd i think..
its ok.. i'll still try again i guess..

HEH

2010-01-16T23:27:00.001+08:00

OMG went butter AGAIN!
guys there are the worst! HAHAH.
okay.. enough whining!

chocs chocs chocs...
wonder what chocs she likes the most..TSKK.

sian

2010-01-11T12:21:00.002+08:00

i am missing her already..
maybe we won't meet again.

dennis is damn right,
i'm really becoming like jerry.

heh

2010-01-09T06:10:00.004+08:00

ian attempted to ask her out..
FAILED!

but hmm, for the first time i had the courage to take the next step.
for the first time i felt sad yet happy.
and for the first time,
this strong feeling inside me telling me..
she's the one..

mp3 earphones reading a book!
if only i had a photo of that..heh.

YO

2010-01-07T12:12:00.003+08:00

okok, another 2 weeks have passed since i came back from beijing!
fun fun and fun!
went clubbing last wed with fel,noi,iris,te, and the guys..
somehow the first is always the best i guess.
i had so much fun last week!
gabriel that noob dislocated his leg climbing up and down the platform. HAH!
but it was really fun! dancing to the music, drinking..
i so wished we could go clubbing every week!

had countdown chalet organised by jerry!
it was so much fun too! mahjong and movies overnight!
oh i got drunk, they said i was repeating nonsense over and over again! lol.
but the feeling of being dizzy rocks!
its a high feeling and you are not being able to worry about anything!
cause you can't think straight.

went clubbing again last night.
this time with fel,shann,shining,jolyn,fel's two friends, and the guys..
it was alright this time too.
joel is a nice guy after all, not sure why my impression of him made me kind of afraid of him before we met again today.
anyways, yup..

things were kind of wierd, she was kind of avoiding me the whole night.
i tried to protect her, she shifted position,
and she was really close to some guys,
i know its just friends, and its her character to be that friendly to friends,
and i'm nothing to her..
but i still feel fucked up. lol. OMG!
eh, i feel so noob, whining on a blog.
but no worries, its a dead blog, she nor anyone important will find their way here!(:

she's really a very nice girl,
she's really attractive when she has that serious look.
will never forget that few moments in which i was mesmerized by her over the years.
the mp3 earplugs in her ears while reading a book.
if i were good at art, i would capture that moment..
many other moments i guess.
cute sides like today at macs, the way she was tempted by food and all.
she was really cute and funny!

not sure if i will get to see her again.
i really hope i do.
maybe i will have grow the balls to ask her out.
then again she has to agree first right?
ahh gosh! i'm feeling SO FUCKED UP!

HEH

2009-12-27T09:49:00.004+08:00

I'M BACK!(: super cold there in beijing..
lowest was like -15 in the night at chengde.
and worst part, the hotel in chengde was shitty. HAH.
okok. that was a bad start to this post. makes it so messy.
lets start from the airport.
or actually, before the trip started..
i was telling ed and gang.. "i'll be praying my tourgroup will have at least 1 pretty girl or this trip will be soo boring!"
HAHA. bet you guys will be like.. thats soo ian!
anyways yea. i mean beijing leh.. won't it be boring without eyecandies..
actually. anywhere would be better with sweet things to see!(:

okok.. enough of those crap.. HAH.
hmm, at the beijing airport. i saw this super pretty, demure.. but super matured looking girl..
at that time at least.. HEH.
well, yea. i thought she was like 20?25?
but she was really very pretty..
anyways, good news is, she was in the same tour group!
and better news.. we dine at the same table for most of our meals!
ah well, didn't get to talk to her much.
kinda rushing here and there. and i'm shy k..

so well, back to the trip.
it wasn't as boring as i expected it to be..
forbidden city,greatwall, err.. many more.. but can't remember atm..
oh the food wasn't that bad too. though its a little oily and salty..
other than that, it was kinda tasty.

before beijing, i was reluctant to go..
now i kinda miss there, the people, food,weather??
the people in our tour group were very funny,
how we made fun of the tourguide and joked around..
it was cool.

anyways, back in s'pore.. bbq stuff to settle, SG9 outing, wana meet up with shama gang. bob kwok too..
LOTS and LOTS of STUFF TO DO before i enlist..
shall update again soon!
oh btw, MERRY X-MAS ALL!
this year's christmas was only spent with 1 friend..
which is sad yet not really that sad after all..HAH. (:

great day

2009-12-12T04:06:00.002+08:00

haha, i promised to be back on the 3rd, but its like the 12th already?
besides the depressing alevels.. alot more happened!
had prom on the 8th, last tues.
the dinner itself was soso,
but everyone looked really pretty and gorgeous.
went to chill with the rest a clark quay, went to some small bar.
played pool till it closed, then we headed to some macs till morning.
it was cool(:

went out with conquer gang today.
went to watch Couples Retreat.
quite funny,
oh and guess what.
i met someone whom i totally never expect to meet.
in fact. i never thought i would ever meet her ever again.
that thought used to make me sad. haha.
but i got over it soon enough. but hmm, we met again.
not once but twice. they watched the same movie as us too.
uh well..

long yet short hols before i enlist. better enjoy while i can..

WOOT!(:

2009-10-01T20:24:00.004+08:00

I neither have the energy nor the time to care.
okay, that's bullshit! HEH.
anyway. have the sudden motivation to make a miracle!
S to A for MATHS.
S to B for CHEM.
S to C for ECONS.
D to A for BIO.

My improvements since prelims 1 was small.
U to S for MATHS.
U to S for CHEM.
U to S for ECONS.
U to D for BIO.

but i believe i can do it!
I'll make this miracle man!
YESYESYES!
39DAYS!LET THE BATTLE BEGIN!(:

PS: this shall be my last post till 3 Dec '09!(:
will get that chem summary done by this weekend!HEH!
I know I'm not the only one battling! Neither are you!
LETS ALL FIGHT ON TOGETHER PEEPS!((:

2009-09-28T21:07:00.003+08:00

spent the whole day revising maths and writing out summaries!
FINALLY ITS DONE! WOOT!
i have been procrastinating this task for ages!
HEHE!

finally can start on my chem and econs homework which happen to be due tomorrow!
GOGOGO IAN!((:

HAHAHAHA.
OHHOHH, PANKUN videos on youtube are SUPER COOL!
SMART ASS APE! HAHAH.
damn cool!goo watch!((:

HEH

2009-09-25T19:15:00.004+08:00

45 days left!
can i do it?!

I DON'T CARE AND I DON'T WANT TO KNOW!
(can i live up to this?)

HOT!..so weird?
haha. what can i say..
"just kidding"??
there will be retribution for telling such a blatant lie!
HAH!

MUG HARD K!((:

HEHE

2009-09-24T19:03:00.003+08:00

prelims are over.
i think i didn't do so well once again.
bio was alright.
but after hearing what Mr Azahar said.
i sooo hope i can at least pass my bio.

i think promos start in 11 days.
hope you are prepared!
hope you are studying!
hope you will promote!
Mug hard k!(:

SIAN

2009-09-22T22:25:00.001+08:00

sudden feeling of sianess.
want to talk but its not possible.
as we are not the same as before.
not for now at least.

oh, maths paper2 and econs were kinda crappy today.

left 2 papers.can i do it?
sudden lack of motivation to mug on.

NOOB!

2009-09-21T20:07:00.001+08:00

sometimes, i wonder wth am i doing. heh.
you say you don't want to care.
you say you just want to concentrate on your exams.
NOOB!

HEH! STATS TMR! HOPE I CAN PWN THAT PAPER MAN.

F

2009-09-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

OMG. DAMN SCARY LA. THIS CB FEELING.

LUCKY TMR NOT ALVL MATHS.

I HAVE LEARNT MY LESSON ALREADY!

JIAYOU PEEPS!

ha

2009-09-14T21:12:00.001+08:00

I FINALLY UNDERSTAND WHY.

SHALL STOP THIS CRAP ALREADY!(:

lalala

2009-09-14T19:41:00.000+08:00

TIRED!

FLUNK ECONS PAPER 2!(not enough time man..)

GOT REJECTED AGAIN!(HAH!)

OMG!I FEEL DAMN NOOB!!

HAIZ

2009-09-14T04:26:00.000+08:00

TIRED!! OMGG.

just need a press on ian!

or a pat on the back,you can do it ian!

STRESS!

thats what you get for last min mugging.

hehe

2009-09-13T13:42:00.001+08:00

ECONS IS TMR!!OMGG!

MISS MISS MISS!!!

ALL THE BEST PPL!

PS: i give up.

.

2009-09-11T22:23:00.000+08:00

HATED.

JUST CONCENTRATE ON YOUR FREAKING EXAMS IAN!

!!

2009-09-09T22:42:00.003+08:00

AHH! TIME IS TICKING FAST!!
left like 4 days, aww man.
GOT LOTS LOTS LOTS MORE TO STUDY!! SAVE ME!!

i saw some light in my organic chem today!
i could actually do basic organic questions without referring already!
HEH!
MORE PRACTISE TOMORROW!!(:

ohh btw. jiaying's name is in the newspaper today! OMG!
wahaha. i needed wayne to sms me before i realised la. although i read the article.
you suck la ian. hahah.
why am i like more excited than her.

4 more days!! Jiayou peeps!

hehe

2009-09-06T22:26:00.002+08:00

lol,shocked to recieve that sms today.
i mean. never did i expect this dead blog to be read.
super paiseh too la. omgosh!

anyway, now cannot rant my heart out already.
shall make this into a one way channel to you(:

things have become super different now.
so miss those days a few months ago(:
must be something i did,
i'm such an idiot afterall!

anyways, like i said.
i only have the energy to try my best for alvls!
and try my best to help you,
be behind you all the way!
whether its one-sided,insignificant, or unnecessary,
i don't know. but it will be done!

JyJy and everyone!(:
5 days of MUGGING! here i come!(:

zz.

2009-09-02T22:40:00.004+08:00

gp paper was rubbish today.
omg,totally can't do ANY of the 5 damn vacab words.
YES,it was that shitty.
rest of the paper was equally shit too.

kfc with the usuals.
studied abit at macs.

i said i wanted to help her.
yet i'm creating more trouble.
letting my rubbish emotions take control of my actions.
letting my impulses take control of my actions.
F MAN.
ian,you should just disappear from the surface of this earth.
the world will be a better place.
i really should stop.

sorry,sorry,sorry.
left 67 days.
F it man.

omg vulgarities non-stop.
i really have to change man.
fffisshh it.(:

FUCK

2009-08-31T23:16:00.002+08:00

teachers' day today.
am filled with gratitude towards each and every one of my teachers.
i know i have not been putting up my utmost effort this year,
but most of you have really been patient and try your best to help us all.
THANKS teachers!

ate at sakae today.
total waste of money la.
spent about 17.50 per person.
but we ate only about 30 plates in total.

went to macs to study with the usuals.
saw this old lady sitting beside us.
i think she sleeps at macs la.
super poor thing.
another old man(not sure if its her husband),
bought her a bottle of 1.5L mineral water and a mc chicken.
i mean really.
if you were there,i bet you would pity that old lady.
i really want to do something for her,
maybe give her some money to buy food or something.
but hmm,i don't have the courage to do so?
or the little money i give will not be significant enough?
i just want to do more,but im just a normal human.
or maybe less than a normal human.
i hate this feeling of helplessness.

its the same with her.
i know shes going through a lot.
i think she is.
i want to believe she is.
but i can't do anything to help her.
i can only sit afar and watch her suffering.
i only can keep her in prayers and hope god would do something.
i really really want to do something.
really really want to help her.
even if its insignificant,
at least i have done something.
at least i have done my best to help her.
but where can i start?
what can i do?
gosh,i really hate this feeling of helplessness man.

i'm never a guy to bottle my emotions.
so yea,to prevent myself from telling the whole world about my worries.
i think this is the best place to shoot it all out.
at least its still confidential as no names are stated.
and well.at least i have an outlet for my rubbish emotions.
k,about here for now.

fuck it

2009-08-29T23:16:00.002+08:00

omg,why is it always during exams when i feel like blogging so much.
aren't i suppose to be mugging hard instead of blogging??
have so much so much so much to study.
don't know where to start,
don't know if my methods will work,
don't know if i will do well for alvls,
don't know if i will do well for prelims,
what if i don't do well for prelims?
will i do well for alvls?
what if i don't do well for alvls?
will i do bad enough to come back to innova for year 3?
if i do well enough not to be allowed back into innova but not into a uni,
will i be able to cope with army life and taking alvls as a private candidate?
so many uncertainties!omg.FUCK IT man.

want to talk to you,
want to bitch to you,
want to hear your voice,
PLEASE....
but its not going to happen.

how can a person survive with so much stress and worries?
hmm,maybe its not alot of stress afterall.

hehe

2009-08-25T22:06:00.001+08:00

ian is really a noob!
happy birthday germaine han!(:
happy sweet 77th?!HAH.
mug hard all!jyjy!:)

FINALLY A POST IN A LONG LONG TIME!!(:

2009-08-23T19:36:00.003+08:00

its like 2months to alvls and i'm still blogging?
wow, heh, anyways,i'm just taking a short break from my hw.
it sucks really.
the feeling of having a HUGE exam so near when you are like not even half prepared?
its like waiting to go fight a war when you have not even mastered the use of your weapons?
whats the end result? dying right?
i only have 2 months.
2 months to master CHEM,MATHS,ECONS,BIO,GP.
3 content heavy subjects, 1 which requires tonnes of practice, and 1 well, hmm, is a pass sufficient?
the feeling definitely sucks.

well,thats why i don't want my junior's ending up like me.
encouraging them to start early,
telling them what i'm currently going through,
and how sucky it is.
really. IT SUCKS!
i totally enjoyed my 1.5 years in innova.
pw,ocip,ogl,pre-u sem.
really, totally enjoyed them man!
and well,the price i have to pay for slacking so much is this.
so yup, having fun is not wrong, but studies still have to be done consistently.

am trying my very very best to encourage her to study.
well,it may only be one-sided on my part.
but hmm, my only piorities right now is me doing well for alvls,and she in her promos and alvls.
ah,this may sound like words of a total loser to you guys.
tsk,can't get her to like you,saying words to console yourself, and what not.
heys, foreign talent is in demand in singapore okay!
CHINA is an emerging economy!
what competition do we face in school besides from our fellow singaporeans??
PRC right! tsktsktsk. HAH.

i miss floorball man. in fact,i miss playing any sport.
havn't played anything since PE lessons ended a week ago.
had maths till quite late on friday.
wanted to see if i could play abit of floorball.
guess what!the whole guys floorball team was at the futsal court.
miss tan was like "what are you guys doing here??" HAH!
hmm,visiting our cute junior can??
TSK.hahah,kidding.
anyway,yea. really miss playing a sport.
went to macs to eat with dennis,jerry and wayne. gabriel came out to meet us.
havn't seen him for a week man. he had family matters.
and well,my wish came true.we played a sport.
pool??
MUGMUGMUG. thats what i need to do right now.

TUITION MUG SCHOOL, TUITION MUG SCHOOL. thats about all my life right now.
oh,had to stay back for extra econs tuition with this really cute AJ girl.
and btw, PRETTY/CUTE does not equals to LIKING THAT PERSON!
i don't understand why some people think that way.
if it were so,i would like half of the girl population in the world.
okay,less that half,cause i'm racist!OMG.hahah,some people will get what i mean(:
anyways,back to my story on that really cute girl,
i always thought she was from RJC!tsktsk.but shes NOT! okay.story ended!(:
hahah,hmmmm. no la. cause we ended same time, so had time to have a short conversation with her.
exchanging study techniques, what are we going to do in this last 80 days.
and trust me, shes definitely MUCH MORE prepared than me!
so yea, better buck up IAN!

MATHS,CHEM,BIO,ECONS,GP! I KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO DO FOR EACH SUB.
and i'm working on it. really hope my method is correct.
time to MUG! gogogo all. jyjy!(:

!

2009-06-07T20:43:00.003+08:00

Pre-U SEM was hot!
a short yet sweet dream!
i mean totally man!
SG9, you guys rock big time!

i know it may not look like it,
but i totally enjoyed my 5 days there.
esp the nights where we bridged,bitched.
its like wow?slos,participants,sg9!omg!:D

anyway,reality is boring and yea,sad.
you made the small emptiness in me.
i guess its cause i sucked yea.
i'm really sorry.

Prelims 1 & 2 then Alvls!
mug hard all!
esp you j2s.hehe((:

.

2009-05-29T23:26:00.002+08:00

finally sch hols.
time to play?nope.
time to catch up on sleep?not really.
its time to mug hard and really..
I MUST DO WELL FOR PRELIM 1.

im not sure if im asking too much,
or what.but i've been feeling up and down this few days.
with everything happening.
i really dont know what is happening too.
i like it yet hate it.
feeling great,yet feeling down.
wth is wrong with you ian.zz

...

2009-05-24T05:22:00.002+08:00

happy bday KS,sry i couldn't turn up ytd.

im just killing myself yea?
alvls is just like 5 months and i'm still procrastinating,
i'm still getting myself into this shit!

grrr,if you can't live up to those words!
DONT SAY IT!FUCK!
whats the point man!

ian is in the deepest shit ever!
dig me out pls!

2009-05-22T00:20:00.000+08:00

why am i always like this..
just feel like like dying right now.FUCK.

2009-05-21T20:22:00.002+08:00

adivs finally over,
we lost like every match.
but we did our very best la,
grats to the girls who won 2 match!
nice match against rvhs.
starsky treating us to swensens next week.woots.(:
what a rich captain huh!(:

its been a sucky week..
whine whine,blah blah..
ohoh,i forgot sis birthday on monday!
omg!didn't wish her happy bday.sian.
but managed to pass her the long prepared present!((:

i'm such a faker.
but what can i do?
its not like i can do anything more..
this is the best i can do,
god,save me from this pain.argh!

alvls coming vv soon.must mug hard!

:D

2009-05-11T16:54:00.005+08:00

heys!a short post it shall be!(:
girls and guys had matches all through last week.
there were joy and saddness,tears and sweat shedded.
but we all did not regret stepping into the court,
cause we all did our very best!right peeps?:D
guys having our last match against ACJC tmr.
once again!we'll do our very best!
i'm really really very sorry to my team for improving so slowly.
though i just joined like a few others,
im the one with the least improvements.
A team is as strong as its weakest player,sorry guys!

anyways,this weekend passed so quickly.
though i have to say,
i am very very very happy!!:D:D:D
omg..hahahahaha....woot!hehehe.
okay.i'm going crazy.
all the best for tmr guys!(:
jyjy!(:

:D

2009-05-03T09:54:00.003+08:00

my new floorball stick!(: Zone Greed Curve 3.0 95/25

hmm,A divs has started..
the whole team is doing really well,everyone is improving fast,
except me i guess,
but i'll try my very best..
we lost MJ,3-1,but it was a great improvement,and unexpected.

having more trainings..
had friendly with blast yesterday.
lost them 8-4,but again.great improvement from last time.
we lost them like 20+ to i think 3?
great job guys!

after friendly,rushed down to val to buy my new stick.
omg,can't believe who i met at cp.
i met her!as in just walked passed..i was too shock to react..
i so regretted not saying hi.hahaha.
ok,this guy is going crazy.
anw,must study for my FA tmr!

2009-04-26T19:53:00.002+08:00

LONG week,
had promotion for OCIP once again.
surprisingly,many J1s were quite enthusiastic about OCIP.
jasper,rachel,jingyi's dance junior,etc etc.
so yup,you guys won't regret signing up for the trip!(:

had friendly on sat.
still making lots and lots of mistakes.
i wonder if i will do fine during tmr's match.
i really don't wish to pull the whole team down.

and well,
i'm once again well...nvm.
jyjyjy.

all the best to the floorball girls for Adivs,
first match on thurs!
all the best to sis and bball girls too!:D

ohoh,jiawen suddenly asked if i was from floorball,
turned out she's YJC's floorball capt.hahah.
and YJ will be playing IJ too.
of course,IJ must win la!hahaha.
btw,jiawen is my prim sch friend.(:

anw yup.all the best to all!(:

hee.

2009-04-11T22:27:00.006+08:00

okay,updating is a pain.
but well.since im free,update i shall!:D
screwed block tests like totally.
am trying to do something about it quick but to no avail.
so yea,still trying.

PW was a B!
perhaps its not that bad,but still kinda disappointed.
perfectionist?i think not.
just that i had confidence in an A.
haiz.anyway,got over it already.i think.

okay,lets move on to some fun stuff!
pool in march holidays!woots(:
still totally enjoy that game.
schools still as fun as always.
new classmate!
his arrival increased the percentage of guys in 0823A from 3/18 to 4/19!

but all is cool!
floorball is as fun as ever!
though line3 needs alotalot more practice.
the whole team is as strong as our weakest players.
we must buck up line3!

had lots of fun,
had floorball friendly yesterday.
NY guys were good,
ended about 4.
chilled with the guys at kfc.

today the girls had friendly.
went down to val hall once again to support?hahaha.
anyways,yup.it was like only me and the whole of line1.
but was a great match.
can see most of the girls putting in their utmost effort.
and yea,bet everyone enjoyed the match yea?((:
hmm,i sounded like we guys played the match,
but nope,the guys went down to support the girls!
so nice right?
*wink wink*
lol.

cute?pretty?hot?
haha,so reminds me of the PCH twins.
IJ has PCH girls!
not 1 but 2 spotted so far!
tsssk.wahahah.

even wanting to chat with you is hard.
why must i make things so complicated!
sian.

okay,enough of the craps.
must mug must mug must mug!!omg.

Hee!(:

2009-03-14T21:15:00.002+08:00

its MARCH already.
lots and lots of things happened.((:
am tired,stressed,hating jc2 life.
but owell,bet it will all be over soon.

ok,lets summarise things.
1)i finally managed to do 2-3 chin-ups!
2)i managed to finish my chem SPA!
3)i did pretty well for my Alvl chi!
4)i joined floorball!
5)prayer works wonders!
6)......hmm,alot alot more lah,the impt ones are stated above((:

gp paper on fri was damn hard!
the short answer questions were super hard!
went for an econs seminar today,
it was very boring.
lucky i got to leave early due to tuition.

tried to plan a pontiaraco outing next week,
everyone seems busy..
guess its not possible this holidays.
i totally miss everyone.
though its only barely a month.haha.
anyways,its okay,mug hard guys!
i shall too,for my coming block test.

meeting melvin and rest almost everyday to study next week!
yes!i shall mug hard too!wish me luck guys!(:

floorball training is tough,
but i shall train hard!
floorball peeps are really nice too.
guys are cool,girls are nice.
its such a fun sport,
and our teacher i/c is dear miss lin.haha.

always trying to encourage you without going through what you do.
now with all these,even if not equivalent,its near to it.
i shall work hard and persevere with you!((:

block test!here i come!((:

hmm?

2009-02-25T22:28:00.002+08:00

long week..
starting to hate jc2 life.
jc1 life was so fun,
jc2?i really feel like dying.
innova has really really nice people.
am not regretting staying in innova at all.

today's cca was a first day for our jc1 juniors.
and once again,only 1 guy joined,rest were girls.
so well.its only me,ivan and that guy?(:
pathetic,yea i know.its not the most ideal cca,
or what most people call it,a loser cca?
but who cares.its the most practical cca in jc,
and well,i'm enjoying my time spent at jcs,
okay,mostly bitching sessions.
i know it sounds weird coming from a guy,but hmm.
thats me?(:
well,i dont gossip for the sake of gossiping okay!
i do it cause i "care!" for my friends.haha.
nice way to put it right??hahah.
anyway,wtf la jessica.anyhow spread.
i really hope this doesn't turn out to be a disaster tmr.
am praying hard.

had cell today.
interesting thing we discussed,
we were told to share each of our recent happenings in life.
and well,i shared mine.
and we prayed for each other.
and i think it really works.

i was wondering why the weird distance btwn us.
now i understand why.
cause you are....
well,i never actually wished for anything more than just....
as stated a few posts down.
all i wished for years was to have that.
and i really felt something diff about you,a certain closeness.
a certain fun with you arnd.
hmm,maybe these are just bullshit lah.
anyways.god did ans my prayers,i got my ans to my doubt.

now all i wish for is things to get better if its possible,
if not.ahh,lets see how things go.
i'm really too tired to really care about anything else but studies,school and sleep!
okay,that sounded abit wrong,
i will never be too tired for some people and stuffs,
so yea.

(:

2009-02-16T20:40:00.013+08:00

long overdued pics which are hmm,worth my time to put up here((:
super long to load photos into here lar.

PONTIARACO!!MY LOVE((:okay,i'm suddenly high.hahah.

POSE 1!!(((:

WE ROCK!((:YOU PEBBLE!HA!

SAY CHEESE!!((((:

SIS!!tssk..must make that face!but cuter than the flower lah.(((:

miss"coolname!"((: ohoh,shes eileen+renee+nat.hahahah!!if you get what i mean(((:

ME & KIRIN!(((:

FARMIS!! STEER!!! FARMIS!! STEER!!! FARMIS FARMIS!! STEERING LAH!!!((((:

(:

2009-02-13T22:04:00.005+08:00

LONG week?(:
lots of tests!like 3??
anyway,its over!

innova with our juniors is really different.
and very shocking!
the students crowdining outside the staffroom for consultations are J1s!!
the J1s barely started lessons and there they are flooding the teachers!
omg,we J2s better buck up!((:
haha.

anyway,had cca fair,
i played drums on stage.
i felt we totally sucks.haha.
walked around.slacked.then went for cell with ger.

had extra maths lecture at 5.40 on thurs.
super super long day...
played abit of frisbee.
don't know why J1s so shy to play frisbee.
first was lily and her friends.
jio them play..direct rejected!haha
then was nette's cousin.
who played frisbee before,quite pro too..
jio him!rejected half-heartedly!i know he wanted to play lah,he just shy..haha.
then asked sis and eereena.
they also don't want!grrr.so fun lah!why u guys don't want?((:

after school,went to causeway with wayne joey and ks to get vday gifts.
then rushed home to wrap my gifts!
i quite happy with what i bought this year!some really v pretty lah.haha.
esp the acrylic keychains!((:

somehow i feel sis is ignoring me..
are you sis??

had econs tuition..
i'm almost totally lost in macro lah.
guess i'll try mug econs this weekend and clear my doubts with misswong next week.
mug hard guys!(:

(:

2009-02-13T21:35:00.006+08:00

okay,since tagged by zhen wei,shall do it(:
looks familiar tho,
i think eereena's blog e thing was the same one!
and hers was damn entertaining lah!hahah,
still can't believed i actually counted to YOUS!hahaha.
anyways,here goes..

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!

1)I love purple!(international gay colour?((:)
2)The posture i sleep while sitting is super unglam!(check out ocip photos)
3)i hate it when people are not ON for gatherings(esp class gatherings)
4)i hate it when people stick to only close friends and unsociable
5)my wish since years ago was to have a younger sis!one to protect and love!but well,god only gave me a younger bro.so owell.
6)never fails to fail econs!!(in short,havn't passed econs before.=X)
7)am studying in Innova!(soo love this school!)
8)am grateful to have so many great teachers this year!
9)wishes to do really really well for Alvls.
10)WANT A NEW PHONE!(lost mine 2 weeks ago!sad.)
11)love all pontiarocosians!esp sis!((:
12)am addicted to pool!(okay,not really,lack of time curbed the addiction.haha)
13)love maths!easiest to score(okay,tho i still barely pass,its still e easiest la ok(:)
14)i sooo want to visit JAPAN!anime paradise.
15)ohyes,i was addicted to animes(gundam00,bleach,toradora,tales of abyss atm ONLY!)
16)can just randomly talk to ppl i don't know anywhere,anytime,anyone!((:
17)loves my class 0823A!
18)procrastinator!
19)loves to sleep!
20)wants to get a job with starting pay 3k!!
21)wishes for motivation to study!
22)loves the world and MOST of the people around him
23)always act before thinking of e consequences!
24)thus...always crying over spilt milk.
25)AND FINALLY!!am a child of god!((:

TAGGED!!
1)SIS yes you!
2)eereena!had such a fun time reading yours..maybe another 25?hahah
3)Gavin!i think you enjoy this kinda stuff..
4)gen
5)jings
6)huiwen
7)...
8)...
and well..anyone interested lah.((:

first week with juniors!(:

2009-02-08T19:45:00.003+08:00

whats lost is lost for good huh..
couldn't find my phone.
am stuck with a basic phone which is freaking hard to use for smsing.
sucks lah.

somehow,managed to survive through thursday and friday after orientation.
homework piled like hell,hell lot of tests next week.
but i'm soo not regretting signing up and being an OGL.

innova with our new J1 juniors is just so different from 1 week before.
lively?noisy?its just a different aura okay.
innova is just not innova without our dear juniors((:

am hearing the same words like i felt last year..
"I'm so glad i did not appeal out..."
"Innova is exceeding my expectations..."
"Innova is great!"
hahaha,thats typical words from innovaians after the first day of school.
i remember my junior's faces on the first day of orientation..
everyone lacked enthusiasm, tired, sianed..
"WHY??WHY?? WHY WAS I POSTED TO INNOVA??"(((:
its different now right??haha((:

ohoh,i heard that on thursday,right after our orientation,
there were J1 juniors mugging in the library.
wow,even the J2s havn't started camping in the library..
this year is just gonna be different!((:

had church,
have i not taken that first step?
have i not opened myself to him?
do i not trust him to lead me?

met peggy and melissa for the first time in church.
des,germ,bren,and rest went to airport to study.
i trained to dhoby.

and here i am..trying to mug for my tests next week.((:
ohoh!i chanced upon miss"coolname"'s blog.
haha.okok.i shall not call her that anymore.
chanced upon eereena's blog..
found out lots of interesting facts about her.
*jaws dropped*but it was fun..haha.
tsk....wait till i see her in sch..wahaha..

this year's juniors are nice and friendly too(:
thurs had econs lecture at 5.40.super late lah!i ended school like 2.10.
anyway,met sis and eereena queuing at e bookshop.
don't know how the conversation went..
i ended up queuing for them..
anyways,point aside.being the usual me..
i just randomly started a conversation with my juniors infront.haha.
i mean,its like really totally random cause i don't know them at all.haha.
oh and right..i still don't really know them.(:

anyways,should really concentrate on mugging hard for next week!(:

Heys

2009-02-04T21:51:00.002+08:00

orientation is over.
sadded..
firstly,it ended.
secondly,back to normal lessons tmr.
thirdly,i lost my phone.
shit leh!
just dropped it,turned behind.
gone within seconds.
all my numbers gone.
i didn't save a back-up.
sianed..now i know,i shall save a back-up right away.

3 days orientation was great!
PONTIARACO..you guys rock!the rest are pebbles!(:
everyone was super enthu!
though some of the games were lame,
everyone participated and cheered loudly!
so love my OG.

am missing them already..
don't forget me guys!
don't forget me sister!haha(:
ohoh,i have a miss "cool name" in my OG too!(:
okay,i really wish to state more names,
but i'm really really tired today.
maybe another time.

mug hard guys!(:

((=

2009-01-17T23:44:00.003+08:00

managed to survive the first week of school somehow..
totally screwed econs hct.
owell,but i have confidence with myself and my teachers this year!
mrlim,mrsmalini,misswong,mrchua,missyow
yea!all my teachers this year are great!((=

i stayed back in school to mug almost everyday.
or actually everyday la.
do homework and mug in school.
with my best friend for the year!AISHAH!wahaha..
okay..that sounds wrong,but,heh..

have to remember dance steps for mass dance!
being OGL is gonna be so much fun!(:
heard this thursday's assembly is gonna be a LONG talk by missyeo.
heng..i don't have to listen!:D

and yea,jyjy all!mug hard!
all the sec4s i know did very well!
grats amanda,siaox.(=

XD

2009-01-12T20:36:00.002+08:00

long time since i blogged,basically,lazy :D
holidays finally ended,
had SLO training camp,
fun fun fun!got to know more ppl better,
benjamin,brenda,yushan,matthew,many many more..

had IJ open house.
i felt it was pathetic.
there were more innovians present than sec4s.haha.

ohoh!i was chosen to attend the budget talk together with matthew on 22nd!
it will be at Parliament House.so cool right??!(:

school finally reopened today!
had lessons as per normal.
i think my teachers so far are great!(:
met mr lin on his way home.
i still feel hes one of the best maths teacher!(:

ohoh!!GREAT NEWS!!
jinyee,ashlyn and their friend candy did really really well for their Os.
grats girls!:DD
still rmb last night when i was talking to them,
seeing how worried they were yet i didn't know what to say.
anyways,grats ppl!(:

ohoh!HAPPY B-DAY rainie!HAPPY B-DAY ZD!(:
though rainie's bday is like tmr,and ZD is like on fri.
but anyways,yup.
shall start mugging!!:D

(:

2008-12-23T21:59:00.005+08:00

actually i lazy to blog,
my life has been the same as always.
but well,for jings!
i shall blog abit.

well,another week has passed!
went with shining and melvin to this moral old folks home to help out at at staff x-mas party(:
fun!free food!had a bbq.(:

went out with 4F on sat.
watched ip-man.
i felt it was quite boring.
but owell.
then half of us shopped at bugis street,
other half went paradiz lan shop.
i watched the other guys played lan.
then we had dinner.
again,half of us ate at kopitiam,half at pasta.
and well,since i was "breaking"!(going broke(: )
i ate yong tao fu at the food court.(:

ytd went with melvin and hongyu to watch YESMAN!
omg,its damn funny!
how he did the granny!LOL.
then went play bball,
then pool with melvin.
ate at sumo once again.
im officially broke now(:

just had mavis again.
someone was late.again?haha,kidding.(:

jings sound pain in her posts.
at least i think i feel the pain.
i don't know what i can do to help her feel better.
cheer up!(:
i'll keep u in prayers.
and whoever who reads this,do pray for her too yea?thanks(:
hope u get well soon!(:

looking forward to,
OCIP chalet,6I gathering,0823A PAE outing,JAE Frisbee outing!(:

(:

2008-12-16T23:24:00.003+08:00

very very long time since i last blogged.
close to a month?(:
okay,half an hour till a month.haha.
anyways,
lots of things happened last month.
OCIP,pools,sentosas.

OCIP was very fun!
vietnam with OCIP peeps.
very fun!
i miss the small kids there at the orphanage,
i miss nathan,
i miss gladys,
i miss justin.
basically,i miss vietnam.
i so wish to spend another week,or even month there with everyone.

anyway,came back,pooled,sentosa with OCIP peeps again.
fun!(:

went sentosa today with licheng,joshua,yongliang,ashlyn,jiaying and jinyee.
i was soo random.
just saw this group of people about my age,or slightly younger playing frisbee,
i just went up,
asked politely if i could join them to play.
haha.that was very random i know.luckily those ppl are very very nice.
they did not reject me.(:
so yup,played some passing with them.
and then i suggested playing ultimate.
the rules they play with is kind of different from what we play.
but anyway.still had fun!(:
after that we lunched.
the laksa i ate didn't taste like laksa at all.
bleh,not cheap too.
and well,we made our way back to vivo.
didn't know what to do,
the girls didn't want to catch a movie.
so well,we ended up walking up henderson's trail.
walked like till the bridge then we sat down and slacked.
that licheng,of everything must tell ghost stories.
in the end make jy cry and ashlyn scared.
tsktsk.in the end he very guilty,lol.
anyway,fun la.today.though i felt pretty guilty too.
didn't plan it well,in the end everyone was very tired and kinda didn't enjoy.
sorry all.
ate at the hawker centre with jiaying,licheng and yongliang.
then trained home.

have a bit of headache.haha.
anyways,heard they have some singing in church tmr.gd luck guys(:
i think yj has too,if i rmb i'll sms her tmr.
to wish luck and well.
come to think of it,
been quite long since i last spoke to her.

looking forward to 4F outing,OCIP chalet,hopefully a 23a PAE and JAE outing.(:

FUCK.

2008-11-17T21:00:00.002+08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK!
i'm so pissed.
GRRR.
said it all out but i'm still fucked up inside.
and so much for being a guy..
GET A LIFE MAN.

(:

2008-11-15T18:57:00.003+08:00

had SIA Carnival last sat,
lots of fun,
interacted with kids from Tanglin School.
was speaking to this malay boy,
he was just 1 year younger than me.
but he felt inferior,
he felt lousy to be in that school.
definitely,you may not be good at everything,
but definitely you are good at something,
so find that something and work on it.

i also used to feel lousy to be in Innova,
to be in a 20 pt JC.
but now,i'm a proud Innovian.
i love my friends in Innova,
i love my time spent in Innova,
i love almost everything in Innova,
so yup,i'm most of the time a happy guy in Innova!(:

had econs lecture on monday.
then had dry run for PE activities.
played quite a few games,
many of us fell during the tag game.
KK fell 3 times!
gen even got a long cut,
so poor thing.
but the games were fun la overall.

had Adam Khoo workshop for the next 3 days.
i was kinda motivated by his talks.
Gary's talks were very very entertaining(:
and well.andrea was not bad too la i guess.
this workshop really taught me a lot of studying strategies.
speed read,memory techniques etc..
i soo didn't regret signing up for this workshop.

had econs lecture again yesterday.
it was Mr Chu's final lecture with us Innovians.
he is leaving for Pioneer JC.
sad right?
he is such a good econs lecturer.
i really don't know why all the good lecturers are leaving us.

after lecture went to airport to send candice off.
she was heading back to Philippines for this holiday.
went with gab,nat,ks,gavin,jh.
we ate at Popeye.
the food there really rocks la.
damn delicious!(:

today,headed to melvin's house to do a ppt for ocip.
met gen,shining,melvin and hongyu at woodlands.
we did the ppt till about 3.30,then headed off.

hmm,i was yelled at by gen.
i guess i pissed her off somehow.
but i was only shocked.
normally if you yell at me for no reason,
i will be pissed off at you,and well,
in most circumstances,yell back at you.
but this time,i was just shocked.
i couldn't find the anger in me somehow.
hmm,weird.

anyway,things got better btwn us within seconds.
haha.funny la.
i'm a weird guy i guess.(:
went to hub to play pool with gen and hongyu.
played an hour plus and we left.
first time playing?...whatever la.hongyu.
lol.hmm.bused home.
tired..

hmm

2008-11-07T19:06:00.002+08:00

pw ended on monday(:
Q&A was not as scary after all.
managed to crap my way through.
ate sushi with renee,yuhui and arvin.
well.we spent a few hours eating and hearing arvin bastard a pork.
LOL.okay.i know i'm mean.

went east coast on wednesday.
had 0823A outing.
finally we managed to have one!
alot of us went.
even LJ went okay!lol
i was buried in the sand.
even got tourist want take our picture!haha.
played frisbee,
biked,
then the day ended with dinner at PP.
renee couldn't make it.
but,hopefully she can for the next outing.

collected results today.
can promote bah.
but somehow i'm not excited about it.
we did not get to promote as one.
next year's 0823A will be smaller.
alot smaller and quieter.
sadded.

today really sucks.
i really really hate that feeling.
the feeling of being ignored by you.
i think i did something wrong again.
i'm sorry.

tmr got ocip at khatib.
one whole day there.
wonder what fun stuffs would happen.

(:

2008-10-31T23:25:00.002+08:00

eh i really suck la.
getting influenced over the smallest little thing.
just have to see a picture and i will feel upset.
jealousy?
whats there to be jealous about.

argh.
OP on mon.
finally,the end has come.
JQ did well for his OP.
hope mine will go smoothly too.

played frisbee again ytd.
next wed finally a class outing.
that gab always v rubbish la.lol
always think i v rich.
say what bbq at my house.
tsktsk.

but anyway.think everything is settled!
hope it doesn't rain.

hmm.

2008-10-27T23:49:00.002+08:00

LONG yet SHORT weekend.
am still not satisfied with my ppt slides.
but owell,see what the others can add first tmr.
thought i would be guai enough to finish the 2 sets of chi.
but sianed after one.
i&r drafts were rubbish,according to mrlim.
hopefully this 3rd one would be better.
okay,finished my whining(: or not.

i realised something.
the good feeling of love is felt when you love someone.
you won't feel anything being loved by someone.
only that person who love you will feel it.
so yup.
its great!
the feeling of loving you.(:

owell,hmm.
as i said before,
pw ending soon.
kinda happy..
yet sad...
L.O.V.E huh.(:

(:

2008-10-26T18:18:00.003+08:00

sorry for super late replies for some(:
tag replies:
YT: yup,shall chage it when i have the time.(: and thanks.
Yang Jun: yup,real long..shall visit church soon. quite alright.JC life.forever rushing to meet deadlines.(:
hasyir: eh you WOLS la.lol.now then realise. yup, i hope i will learn soon too.haha. we shall meet up soon!all of us PAE 0823a.(:
zhen kang: Heys!(: ya,i think i know who you are. you are my cousin's PW group right?Justina.real fun playing frisbee with you guys.you guys really play frisbee damn well. looking forward to playing with you guys again soon(:

had PW and MT intensive.
long week,damn tired la.
almost everyday sleeping at 1-2.
somehow,i feel very happy this week.
the time spent in school with everyone,esp my pw grp members.
sadly PW coming to an end.
okay,still got I&R and ppt slides to edit.
chaos.

sian.

2008-10-19T23:50:00.003+08:00

supposed to have pw on sat,
ended up only i went.
did abit then left.
hmm,although this sounds like i'm whining,
but actually not really,
guess the rest were busy.

in the end played abit of pool with JH.
damn sian,lost almost every round.

i very scared i'll take a wrong step again.
i really cannot afford another..
i'm sorry,i'm really am.
i'm am that kind of person,
i'm trying to change.
but its not happening..
i'm still that old self of mine.
forever taking a wrong step and regretting it.
i really don't mean to make things wrong between us.
sorry,really am.

haiz,i guess this is life.
my life.
hmm,just kidding.not?

:(

2008-10-17T19:54:00.002+08:00

this week damn sian,
everyday rush pw till damn late.

got back econs today..
failed till like shit!
omg,don't know how i will survive in J2 next year.

today was rushing pw in com lab as usual.
heard something.
not sure i heard correctly.
but i feel damn weird after hearing it.
i mean even if its true,
then its true la,
i also won't be able to do anything about it.
but still will be kind of sad la.

alot of people i know in innova can promote!
thats something to celebrate.
sianed.

(:

2008-10-14T23:02:00.003+08:00

midcourse was over..
acutally quite long le.
most of my results are out.
mostly Es.
but so far..i think i'm promoted(:

my class,mostly can promote too.
a few here and there risky.
but glad most of us can promote.(:
esp someone.

LOL.ppl are worrying about promoting,
but you are worrying about a nice looking report slip.lol
but hmm,9 credit points look nice enough le la.
and yea,you are able to achieve it(:

was chatting with jon and gen on the train back.
long chat,quite true...yet quite not true..
owell.since we are here,
we should try make the best of what we have i guess.

frisbee!i miss frisbee!i miss pool!(:

xD

2008-09-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

omg,i'm dying for frisbee!!
ITS DAMN FUN!!

ohyes!i know what we can play with the kids for ocip....
FRISBEE!!woo.xD.

mid-course is next week.
trying damn hard to mug..

and thanks gen.
for the encouragement and all.
esp the thought..
to pursue them after mid-course..thanks ah.LOL.

then again.must mug hard!
then can have lots of funess with ocip!

(:

2008-09-22T21:55:00.002+08:00

today played frisbee again!
once during PE,and again after school.
damn damn damn damn damn fun la.
woo,i'm loving it..(:

don't know why leh.
the more i play it,
the more i get addicted to it.
so like pool!
just that this is free.haha

ohyes.
i have learnt my lesson this time!
anyway,i really suck la.(:
so yea,its alright.
i won't succeed anyway.

):

2008-09-19T21:47:00.004+08:00

another week closer to mid-course.
and i hardly revised.
alot alot of things happened this week.
happy things,sad things,worring things,alot la.

had this dream a few nights ago.
i still can't forget about it.
really,its the first time i felt damn helpess.
i really did not know what to do.
if that were to happen in real life.
i really dont know what i would do.
now i understand why some people choose to suicide.
its the feeling of helplessness.
it really sucks.

today desiree said something which really shocked me too.
i mean all i asked is to move to the front cause its hard to see the screen.
i swear i had no other intentions.
and she had to say those words.
i mean it may be nth.
but i really felt very,hurt?
nah,a guy should never be hurt by words.
but i felt kind of sad,somemore its coming from a friend whom i always felt was a good friend.

yesterday stayed back to play frisbee.
damn fun la can.
though we lost like big time?
but it was damn fun!haha.
could see renee was trying her best to lead the team well.
and she was kind of disappointed cause we lost.
sorry,i think we could have done better.
i'll try and play better next time.

that who always tell me..
"She likes TALL and HANDSOME guys"
okay..but anyway,don't care le.(:

(:

2008-09-14T20:29:00.002+08:00

hrmm,another long week.
okay,maybe not,actually,this week passed faster than expected.
long lectures and tutorials.
kinda sian.
still got PW.
gosh am i whining..LOL.

mid-course coming,ppl mugging..
ppl worried that they are unable to perform well.
ppl afraid summer-test results would affect their grades.
its all expected..
BUT PEEPS!!
don't worry,just do your best.let god do the rest!(:

ohyes.i have found out something.kinda shocking.
someone complained that i only leave my traces behind on girls' blogs.LOL
either we have uncommon guy friends and common girl friends.
that person only visits girls' blogs,
or i really subconciously only tag girls' blogs.LOL
okay,i shall take note from now on.
can't believe i am so affected by that comment.HAHA(:

(:

2008-09-08T21:41:00.001+08:00

something damn cool.
i kapoed this from zhining's blog.
i found it kinda true for me.(:

i'm right-right.

1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying. Look at your hands.
If you see

Left thumb is below the right thumb ---> left brain
Right thumb is below the left thumb ---> right brain

2. Fold your arms in front of you (as if you are angry)

Right arm above left arm ---> left brain
Left arm above right arm ---> right brain

Based on 1+2 (order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:

Right-Left:
Considerate, traditional, indirect type can instinctively read other's emotion, and respond friendly by natures. Although not very into taking initiatives in moving forward, but this person will always take a step back in supporting others. Stable personality and considerate, give others a being protected feeling. But the weakness is they cannot say no; regardless how unwilling they are, they will take care of others.

Right-Right:
Loves challenges type Straightforward. Once they decided on one thing, will take action right away. Very curious, and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their weakness is they don't listen to others, will filter in only what whey want to hear in a conversation, and very subjective. However, because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.

Left-Left:
Dedicated, cold, perfectionist. Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat (or win over) him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of prides, and feeling strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are very trustworthy. However, if they are your opponents, they will be very tough to deal with. Because they can be very 'anal' as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with when first met.

Left-Right:
Likes to take care of others, leader type. Has a cool and keen observation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs. Because of their cool and calm nature, and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become head of a group. Popular among people. However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care of others too much. Very concerned about how others view them, and always on alert.

sianz.

2008-09-05T22:19:00.004+08:00

end of sept holidays already.
rushed WR,I&R,went back for extra lessons..
this holiday wasn't really much of a holiday i guess.
anyway,mid-course is coming.can't be helped i guess..

sometimes i really wonder..
things that are done wrongly can never be undone.
once i took that wrong step,even time can't change it.

i really just want to start as friends,
but it seems so hard.
i know its you.
you are the one and only now.
it hurts not even being able be normal friends.

someone keep saying you are like this other her..
but you are not.
in fact,you two are totally different.
you are kind,she is less.
others first before yourself,herself first before others.
you are selfless,she is not.
you are PC,she is PH.
and somehow,you are just better than her..

i rmb that who always like to ask:"you think XXXXX or XXXXXX prettier?"
or still got:"you think XXXX XXX or XXXXXX prettier?"
i would always be like,both also not pretty la can.
though now i have the definite answer.

but then again,pretty is the first impression only la.
after this 6 months,
yes,you are more than just pretty on the outside.

hmm,don't know why i feel damn uncomfortable on the inside.
bet anyone who sees this will go...zz,then again its ian..
haha,this is so like gamgamgamgamgam.
haiz.i hate this.

(:

2008-08-31T21:24:00.003+08:00

hmm,about 2 weeks since i last blogged!(:
very hiong la,these 2 weeks.
meeting deadlines,tests,assignments.
but overall is cool!(:
still enjoying myself in innova!!

was printing some pictures for a teachers' day card for mrlim.
got this 1 picture,gosh.
she was super pretty..

anyway,teachers' day was great,
a well planned performance by the student council.
i think mr lim was touched by the card and cake we made for him.
cause he least expected it(:
but really,we are really grateful for all he has done for us.
THANK YOU mrlim!(:
and of course THANK YOU all teachers who has taught 0823A.

hmm,got a few pictures,all up in class blog(:
damn pissed with some ppl,anyways.
LOTS of homework to chiong.jia you ppl!(:

(:

2008-08-17T00:06:00.002+08:00

this week was short..
monday was a holiday,
tuesday had extra maths lessons..

wed had students forums meeting for all student leaders.
discussed many important topics.
i felt it was a worthwhile session.

thursday i skipped school.
caused whole day really no studying..
so well,stayed at home.

friday,was okay lar.
long day of lectures..
went for lunch at macs with gab and gang.
had 3 hours of extra chem lessons.
then had photo taking session.
i still feel 0823a rocks!

anyway,had ocip meeting after that.
i feel real guilty about it.
though i was supposed to be in fund-raising,
i requested to be moved to programmes due to some reasons,and cause renee,yuhui they all are in programmes.
i know its kind of selfish of me.
and well,melvin wasn't very happy too.
i really don't know..
we discussed about what fund-raising events we are going to carry out.

today,
met szesing,yuhui,caizhuang,and one of their friend to play.
but it started raining...
we lunched and i left for tuition.
renee was suppose to join us,but hmm,she was tired and didn't join us.
left for maths tuition.
my first day there..
there were 3 ppl in the class including me and 1 was an innovian too!(:
didn't get to know her name and all,but hmm,can see that she is nice too.
anyway,99.99% innovians are nice la okay..
had econs in the evening.
the class was super packed!
ohoh,the PCH girl was there too.haha.

okay,must study bio and chiong eom tmr..

(:

2008-08-09T21:10:00.004+08:00

heyheys,another week has passed!(:
ohyes,had sign language on tuesday.
damn cool!!
they sing while doing the lyrics with signlanguage.
becomes like a dance..omg,they rock!

had SPA on thurs,
ohyes,had a talk from DR WILLIAM TAN too..
i felt it was very inspiring..
up till now,his words are still ringing in my mind.
D'PICK..i will always remember them..
DARE TO THINK BIG!
do not give up..yes,determination!thats all we need..

yesterday,national day celebration,
so no studies,school ended about 10.30 too.
went with nat,candice,ks and jiahao to amk hub to eat.
ate at sumohouse..
actually wanted meet hueyjia for lunch,
but i thought of it too late,she already had plans..
anyway,yup.
then went pool with jiahao and ks,
jingheng joined us after that.
first time i played 9-ball pool!
it sucks la..at least the way we played it sucks.
i prefer the normal 8-ball pool.
played till about 4.15,
left for yishun go find yuhui and her gang.
volleyball,badminton..
go out with them can play all the sports..lol.
but yup,very fun!(:
after that went for pool at occ.
met a whole lot more guys..
roman,kengfai,kahkiat...
ohyes,also got to know erm..caizhuang isit?
and yup,my impression of them is still like always...
NICE!COOL!FUN!(:

ohyes,i learned about something yesterday too..
weird i felt normal after knowing of it,
considering how weird i felt previously..
maybe its cause of DR WILLIAM TAN's speech..
THINK BIG!DETERMINATION!!(:
haha,anyways..we'll wait and see..

today,slept almost the whole day!
have to start studying la,if not i will flunk my mid-course..

(:

2008-08-02T21:30:00.005+08:00

2 1/2 hours counting down till my 17th birthday!(:
i really thank god for the past year of blessings..
allowing me to score quite alright for Olvls,
best of all,allowing me to enter INNOVA!
met and made great friends in the past few months here..
i shall make the effort to name everyone i met..
i'll try rmb everyone..if i do forget anyone,do forgive me!(:
first of all,

INCA TAMPUS:MUZ!PEIKEE!steph,mark,nat,
we sure had lots of fun during asperazca I didnt we?!:))
sadly alot of us left..

0823A PAE:
JQ,hasyir,hana,nat,gab,des,PK,diyy,andy,cooro,aishah,jiayun,amir,yvonne,povan,colin,sherying,jeannie
hope i didn't miss out anyone..haha,its the best class ever!!
i sure enjoyed my short 8 weeks spent with you guys!
0823A~PAE~BEST CLASS FOREVER!@((:

ASYRIA SALAMAS: JOEL,zhining..alot more..
hmm,i really can't remember much of them,cause we had a short 3 days..
didn't really have time to bond,unlike asperazca I.
so well,but we sure had fun too!(:

0823A JAE:
gabrielle,desiree,natalie,candice,eileen,renee,yuting,yuhui,diyana,yogam,amerah,
aishah,jiayun,jiaxin,szesing,zhaodi,zhihui,pall,arvin,joey,khongsheng,wayne,LJ.
definitely a great class!(:
though not very bonded at the moment..but we are still there for each other!(:
and fear not!we have 1 1/2 years more together!!(:

HYPERNOVAS:
ok,this one really too many to state..in short, BOYS TEAM,GIRLS TEAM!
haha,fun people,cool people,nice people..we have a mixture of all!
best hockey team ever!(:

yuhui's GANG:
huiwen,qianhui,fion,kahkiat,(4 guys whom i forgot their names=x).
2 words to describe them:NICE & COOL!(:
1 word to describe their clique:FUN!!((:

OCIP 2008:
kimberly,lelia,niveda,joyce,william,shining,lynette,joshua,jonathan,ravin,yuhui,renee,qianhui,kahkiat,
simin,fion,janelle,vanessa,elena,genevieve,melvin,nuraini,dickson,athirah,rahimah,and a few new members..
we havn't really bonded,
but most of us did many activities together,
the hike,family day sports event.
and we are going to spend 2 whole weeks working together in another country!
so fret not,we have all the time to bond!you guys rock too!(:

PACERs:
YiXi,raina,sidd,
thats all i can remember..
but bet we are going to have much more chances working together!(:

Japanese Culture Society:
leevia,hidayah,ivan,steph,cindy,jess,yixi,melissa,ryan,hoa an,iris,peiqi,yuting,huiping,charlotte,xiaofen,
and hmmm,some new members whom arn't new to me:
gab,des,nat,eileen,renee.
so yup!FUN CCA too!
the drum lessons was very fun!
and thanks leevia for the cute badges!(:

SPECIAL DEDICATIONS & other FRIENDS!!:)
gab,des,nat,candice..you guys make my life in innova!@((:
yixi & vivien..you are the nicest friend that anyone can wish for!!you rawk!(:and same goes to viv!both of you rock!((:
shining & mus..you guys are nice!glad to have met you again in innova.
jocob & sam..sad that i have to see you guys for another 2 years ):.....NOT!@!(:
nicholas..didn't know you back in mshs!but glad to have you as a great friend in innova!(:

TEACHERS tooo...(:
Mr Jeffrey Lim..aka AgentHH aka PenguinTeacher
"my eyes may be small but don't think i cannot see what you doing" LOL!!
most caring teacher one can ever wish for..
Mr Chua BB(retired)..one of the BEST maths teacher!(:
Mr Joshua Tan..most friendly teacher you can ever find in a school!(:
Mdm Wong.."see!biology is so easy right?!",yup,if you sit with us for our Alvls!!((:
Mr Lin..ANOTHER one of the BEST maths teacher!(:
Mdm Loh.."EE-YUN"lol..funny,but unique way of calling me!(:
Wu Lao Shi..ni shi zui bang de hua wen lao shi!!

ok,that should be most of my innova family!(:
hope i didn't forget anyone..

hmm,since post so long le,shall not post about what happened last week!
but got something HAVE to post..
i beat jingheng every match in pool today!!
trashed him flat,8-0!!WOOT!XD.
ok,this post took me 1hour+..=x
1 1/4 hours counting down!(:

(:

2008-07-26T22:35:00.003+08:00

though i just posted yesterday,
but hmm,got something i scared i will forget if i dont post now..
anyway,i went 1723 today,met alot of them whom i haven't seen in ages..
left early and rushed for econs tuition at bishan.

guess what,i got to sit beside this PCH girl!
hmm,my self-made term,Pretty+Cute+Hot..
pretty and cute i see alot everywhere la,but hot,first time i find a girl hot..
she has that "cool" aura somehow..
anyway,that aside,cause she has a twin,equally PCH i think..
but thats not the point,the point they look very firmiliar..
seen them somewhere before..but can't remember where..
hmm..anyway,owell..

this weekend alot of things to do!!
EOM,WR,tests,tutorials..
thats cool huh..

(:

2008-07-25T21:01:00.002+08:00

LONG yet SHORT week,its friday already..
lets recall..
monday i think nothing much happened.
ohyes,mr niadu left us,so well,new gp teacher again..

ok,tuesday was super fun!
frisbee was so fun can!!(:though my stamina really sucked,
felt damn tired after playing for less than half and hour.
was playing frisbee and volleyball with renee,yuhui,eileen.
there was this 2 basketball team players,
they ask us play with them basketball,in return they played frisbee with us.
i teamed with yuhui,agaist them.
yuhui was omg can?bai fa bai zong.
we won cause her shots super accurate.
ohyes,my impression of this person whom i don't really know totally changed that day.
but i shall not elaborate..

wednesday was as cool..
went ocs after school.
very cool that place.
we tried out one of their obstacle course,some of their food,firing some blank rounds..
it was very fun overall.
ohyes,met jingheng and kwok there too.
ohoh,and still got hana too!(:
so yup,ocs was very fun!

thursday,the longest day of the week.
GP lecture was quite interesting,
HOMOSEXUALITY..hmm,watched some ads and videos.
had mock SPA again,then PE.
PE lessons sucks la.cause i can't pass my chin-up.
anyway,today's lesson wasnt that bad afterall.
it was spent fruitfully!(:though it was only barely 10-15mins.
but yup.its cool!(:lol...
hope i get more of these chances!but of course you must get well faster too la.
had econs extra lessons too,
MONOPOLY..quite an easy topic to understand...
ohya..
ian:why qianhui......so colourful ar?
yuhui:chey,i thought u want say she chio..
ian:erm..erm....
lolz,why my conversation with yuhui always so interesting one ar..
er,not saying qianhui not chio la..
aiya,nvm...enough said about econs lecture..

friday,short and boring day.
k,thats all for this week.

(:

2008-07-20T16:32:00.002+08:00

past few days have been fun!(:
friday went for JCS,discussed about a sushi making course we gonna prepare.
after that went for pool with yuhui,fion,renee,and their another 2 friends.
i think sooner or later i will know their whole clique.haha.
qianhui joined us later too.
they are all really really nice people.

but on the train.they suddenly asked me,do i know a colin tan..
i was like erm..colin tan..why is the world so small??lolx.
anyway,colin was from the same primary school as fion and yuhui.
so yup,theres the missing link.lol

saturday,which was yesterday.
had the SCC family day sports event in school.
most of the ocip people were helping out as volunteers.
i reached at 10,carried stuffs here and there till more people came.
then we set up the tables,then i helped with the balloons.

then when almost all of the people arrived,the event commenced.
we started out with a few small games,
then there was this mass workout exercise.
we IJC student volunteers were asked to stand in the front to lead the rest.
but it was our first time doing it too,so well,yea.
and for some reason,i ended up in the front with the 2 SCC volunteers.
lucky my skin was thick enough,but it was very fun lar!(:

ohyes,i vaguely remember something funny.
joyce:ok ian,from today i will treat you VERY nicely.
dannie:ian,trust me!you won't want her to treat you nicely.
ian:erm....okkaaayy..
lolz,those two are always bickering at each other,
but can see,those two make a great couple!(:
haha,we were in-charge of some telematches too.
overall was quite a success,the rain came only after the last telematch.
then we had tea reception at the canteen,it was a buffet.
and the nicest was that not sure what its called,
something like a cream puff.it was super nice la!

towards the end,i ended up gossiping with yuhui,renee,fion,qianhui,and hmm,simin or smth=X.
lol.ok,thats kinda mean.but owell.
but that yuhui ar..keep bringing her up,everything also must link to her.
you good la!lol.

today i went to church.went back to bb church!
met gongtuo and went for service tgt.
after service,met audrey,amanda,hannah and belinda outside.
they were like joking..its been 10 years since we saw you..or maybe longer..lolx.
but yup,great to see you guys again!(:
then saw yingjia and grace on the 2nd storey.
but they were like rushing off somewhere,didn't get to say much.haha.
i shall visit sheng jing fang again soon!(:
speaking of which during service,i suddenly remembered i havnt spoken to hueyjia in a long time.
ok la,maybe not very long,but quite a few months already.
wonder hows she coping in NY.
shall speak to her again soon!(:

i ate subway before coming back.
the cookies were awesome ok..so love them..lol.

ok...another 4 days have past,and i still havent really got to speak to you.
ohyes,i prayed for you in church today,so everything should be fine!
you will get well real soon!(:
god will watch over all of us!(:

(:

2008-07-17T22:15:00.002+08:00

school life in innova is as fun as ever.
had ocip meeting last night at scc.
we packed goodie bags for sat's sports event.
i'm in-charge of telematch 2 with melvin and a few others.
went for dinner with yuhui,qianhui and fion.

me:eh i like very extra eat with you 3.
yuhui:aiyah,nvm lah,you always very extra one mah.

okay....lol.
had Alvls chinese listening comprehension today.
all my answers same as gab and the rest..got hope of getting 10!(:
lol,gab always get 10 one..so yup..high chances this time!

ok,now time for some whining again..(:
she fell and hurt her back.
it seemed like a joke at first,even she joked about it herself.
though she keeps saying shes fine and getting better.
but its kinda obvious that it is really very pain.
climbing up LT1,during chi lecture.
can see her suffering in pain while i can't do a thing about it.
i really want to help somehow,
perhaps helping her carry her stuffs,
taking her mind elsewhere at all times so the pain won't be felt?
but i guess,the chance to do all these will not reach me.
owell,hope i get to do something for her soon,if not tmrw.

i know i'm lame,
always filling my mind with "unncessary??" things.
but anyway,i guess all i can do atm is pray for her.

happy?and sad i guess..

2008-07-14T20:16:00.002+08:00

i'm back..
had batam ocip trip last weekend.
fun fun!!(:
we played with the kids,did painting,mixed cement and stuffs.
overall was cool and fun.
the resort was great.
it was more of a holiday than a cip trip i guess.haha.
went to the mall in the night.
bought doughnuts!J.CO.the doughnuts there were like 7.50 a dozen.
unlike here,maybe 11-12 a dozen.

i really thank god for allowing me to stay in innova.
0823A,esp gab,des,nat,candice.
they really make my school life in innova fun.
not forgetting everyone else in 0823A.
and of course rest of my friends in innova.everyone is cool.
soo dont regret coming to this "20 point lousy jc?"

ohyes,i joined Japanese Culture Society.
we had manga colouring for my first meeting there.
made new friends too..mel,ryan and more.
of course had yixi and xiaofen there too.
life in innova just keeps getting better!(:

but then again,life will not only be up all the time.
i feel lost at times.
what am i expecting?
i know i should take it easy.
if not it will all be the same like before.
i really don't wish for it to happen again.
dear lord,please guide me..

(:

2008-06-30T21:35:00.002+08:00

hmm,long time since i last blogged again.
anyway,lets continue from where i stopped.
had leadership camp on friday.
it was a cool camp.
the talk on communicative skills was great.
i really learned alot.
and yea,i met more pacers,got to know some of them,
some just know they exist,some shocked to find out that they are pacers too!
and of course not forgetting,ONE,hmm,friend,good listener,good crapper,etc etc.(:
a great friday!haha.

had ocip on sat,
was asked to lead some pre-teens on a hike on the new road near vivo.
quite fun..actually was grouped with yuhui and gang,
but cause they too many ppl,and melvin's group only had 3,
so moved over in the end.but still had lots of fun!:D

back to school on monday,
lots of things happened last week la.
new teachers,homeworks due,etc etc.
even got someone pissed off with me.
haiz,hope things will get better soon.
i really not sure what happened,
but can't do anything about it too.
grrr,hate this feeling.

i want to crap with you again soon...
chi orals this week,jiayous ppl!(:

(:

2008-06-19T22:06:00.002+08:00

hmm,quite long never post again.
same reasons la,but anyway.
played quite abit of pool.
watched KungFu PANDA with diyana and yogam on wed,
super funny la the show,i kept laughing through.lol.
had ocip meeting on thursday,
played some bonding games,knew each other better and stuffs.
renee was sick,so couldn't turn up.

met couz and walter at hub on friday for pool.
had chi in school on monday,
my oral suddenly totally cmi.
sian,i better practise a little harder or im gonna screw my Alvl oral.
tuesday actually suppose to go out with nat,germaine and ks.
in the end all ps,so we cancelled.
wed ocip once again!
we helped sze sing's group with their pilot test.
then waited for qian hui to finish her pw discussion before heading to yishun for lunch.
then we went for ocip meeting,
this time to discuss about this sat's hike.
i went with yuhui and her friends to occ to play pool after ocip.
renee had to rush home so could not join us.
they all really pro "poolers" la.(ok i made that term up,lol)
but it was really fun playing with them.
there were 7 of us there,
me,yuhui,kahkiat,fion,qianhui,2 others whom im not sure of their names atm.lol
but hmm,
they are all really a fun and nice bach to hang out with.
i now kinda know why renee said that she rather hang out with her sec sch friends.
her whole class is filled with nice ppl.(:

had maths lecture today,
helped out with gab's pilot test after lecture.
kinda lame,but we got over it.haha.
went to cp with gab,candice and joey for lunch.
cp is the worst place to dine,
not that there is nth to eat,there is too many things to eat!
we debated over fast food or food court.
in the end joey and candice dabao kfc up to horizon to eat with us.
then walk walk abit then come home.
at the bus-stop,
this malay guy with tatoos and all suddenly came up to me ask me for $2.
said what he met with accident then no money and whatever bs,
ask for $2,i was like errr.
but hmm,don't know is i stupid,or i pitied him,or i didn't want trouble,
i just gave him $2.

tmr maths lecture again,
then have leadership camp whole day..damn sian..

=X

2008-06-09T20:40:00.002+08:00

long time nvr post le.
firstly summer test,
secondly lazy,
thirdly no mood,
forthly...hmmm,i think le then write.

anyway,all i remember about summer test was...
SCREWED!
maths..if can get S grade i happy le.
others,should be able to pass.

then came our worst nightmare..
KOTA TINGGI TRIP...
omg,its the worst place to spend 4 days 3 nights.
hmmm,ok la,there were fun activities.
really enjoyed river cascading,kayaking,climbing up the steep part of the mountain.
but we had to hike down the mountain in the dark.
and it was really dark...we could not see anything ahead at all..
my ass was all wet and muddy.
and well.we all had mass food poisoning on the first night too.
but our class was lucky i guess.not very serious for any of us.
except one who vomitted,was kind of worried through the first night.
but glad it was nothing serious the next day.
AND BEST OF ALL..the camp is OVER!:))

met up with 6I at mrwong's house.
have not met everyone in ages.
we watched some videos on old primary school days.
i can't believe i look so hmmm...weird?haha.
can't wait for the next gathering..(:
faster plan it cheng!

slacked through week 2 of my holidays.
met up for PW on wed,
did for like 2 hours then we were desperate for pool.
renee had to babysit,me,arvin and yuhui went to amk hub to play.
havn't touched a cue stick in like ages...since jc started.
i almost teared upon touching one.....NOT!
hmm.anyway,pool was as fun as ever.
went to play pool with jingheng aka pikachu ok thurs too,
we watched ironman after that.
that show was super nice can.i so love the suit,damn cool.
met couz and lester on friday to play pool again..
lol,3 days in a row,wow.was kind of sick by firday.(:

met up for PW again today.
this time arvin didn't come,cause he was in camp.
i tried to be early this time..
but ended up waiting for 2hours cause someone overslept.
ok,i sound like i'm complaining but i'm not ok.
guys are meant to wait i guess..lol
hmm.we made the egg,filled in what we could for the WR pilot test part.
then had lunch there..
ok,lets hear me whine again..we ate duck bones and head!(:
lol..just kidding..should be grateful to yuhui's mum that we got food!
yup,thanks auntie!(:

yuhui wanted go out,
so she chased us home.
renee was trying to contact her friend to go out with.
waited with her at kfc for abit.
chatted about this and that,
i guess it always goes back to that topic,
but hmm,if we ever get a chance to chat again,i won't.
but yup,it was great chatting with you i guess.

YO HASYIR..this blog is not dead..i'm just lazy..
anyway,updated!(:

haiz

2008-05-08T21:58:00.002+08:00

today,had 2.4 napfa.
i think i managed to pass it.
but hmm,i still fail overall,owell.

was scolded by mr lim again.
i know what he is trying to tell me.
i know he means well.
i am trying to study hard.
but its just hard to kick the slacking habit.
i can't change into study mood so easily.
this just sucks.

he gave me a chance and allowed me to be in the OCIP.
but i still feel kind of disappointed for not passing it.
probably cause of my grades,and other various reasons.
but he warned me that i must do well for this summer-test.
AABA,i really don't know how i will achieve it.
its really like so impossible.
i guess i'll have to try my best.

i got a reply.
is even being friends still possible?

(:

2008-05-07T23:01:00.002+08:00

god..i am so tired...
ok anyways,super long days this week.
had 5-item napfa on monday.
as usual,i can't even do 1 chin-up.
broadjump failed my 4cm.
i really don't know how to jump la.

then had OCIP interview on tuesday.
i think i won't have a high chance of succeeding.
mrlim asked me about my deproving results.
what can i say...
i was never a mugger.tho i'm trying to be one.
anyways,hope the 3 of us can make it in i guess.
i really enjoy doing this kind of activities.
finished our GPP conferencing and online too.
hope its alright.

then had extra chem lessons today.
from 3-6.was super tired.
trained home with candice and gab.
hmm,today happens to be wed..so yea...
ohya.i met JH on the bus.
quite long didn't see him already.
anderson uniform..lol..i rmbed it was my dream school like months before the Os.
then nanyang was my dream JC during Os.
BUT of course,INNOVA is my one and only BELOVED JC now.
for some reason.this school just appeals greatly to me after spending weeks here during PAE.
so yup,never regreting coming to this school(:

feeling sick,feeling aching,feeling weird inside out.
i'm really killing myself with all these stuffs.
so looking forward to holidays when i have more time to rest.
but then again,
having more time to rest means...

hmm.

2008-05-01T18:12:00.002+08:00

1 week didn't blog already.
quite lazy,no time,and no mood.so yea.
lots of things happened.
i'll only say the important things i remembered.
had sports evening last night.
was kind of sianed the whole time again.
well,cause of various reasons i guess.
was pondering over some things that were at the tip of my ears,
yet i did not get to listen to it.

sports evening was hot,literally hot.
cheered,played with crayons.
yogam ended up like she had some kind of pox.lol
desiree drew her name on everyone's arms.
i wrote something cool.the 2 letters...(:
quite fun la overall.
though it ended super late.
so yup,here i am rushing the gpp.
ok la,tmrw still got SPA too.
time to mug.