I neither have the energy nor the time to care.
okay, that's bullshit! HEH.
anyway. have the sudden motivation to make a miracle!
S to A for MATHS.
S to B for CHEM.
S to C for ECONS.
D to A for BIO.

My improvements since prelims 1 was small.
U to S for MATHS.
U to S for CHEM.
U to S for ECONS.
U to D for BIO.

but i believe i can do it!
I'll make this miracle man!
YESYESYES!
39DAYS!LET THE BATTLE BEGIN!(:

PS: this shall be my last post till 3 Dec '09!(:
will get that chem summary done by this weekend!HEH!
I know I'm not the only one battling! Neither are you!
LETS ALL FIGHT ON TOGETHER PEEPS!((:

spent the whole day revising maths and writing out summaries!
FINALLY ITS DONE! WOOT!
i have been procrastinating this task for ages!
HEHE!

finally can start on my chem and econs homework which happen to be due tomorrow!
GOGOGO IAN!((:

HAHAHAHA.
OHHOHH, PANKUN videos on youtube are SUPER COOL!
SMART ASS APE! HAHAH.
damn cool!goo watch!((:

45 days left!
can i do it?!

I DON'T CARE AND I DON'T WANT TO KNOW!
(can i live up to this?)

HOT!..so weird?
haha. what can i say..
"just kidding"??
there will be retribution for telling such a blatant lie!
HAH!

MUG HARD K!((:

prelims are over.
i think i didn't do so well once again.
bio was alright.
but after hearing what Mr Azahar said.
i sooo hope i can at least pass my bio.

i think promos start in 11 days.
hope you are prepared!
hope you are studying!
hope you will promote!
Mug hard k!(:

sudden feeling of sianess.
want to talk but its not possible.
as we are not the same as before.
not for now at least.

oh, maths paper2 and econs were kinda crappy today.

left 2 papers.can i do it?
sudden lack of motivation to mug on.

sometimes, i wonder wth am i doing. heh.
you say you don't want to care.
you say you just want to concentrate on your exams.
NOOB!

HEH! STATS TMR! HOPE I CAN PWN THAT PAPER MAN.

OMG. DAMN SCARY LA. THIS CB FEELING.

LUCKY TMR NOT ALVL MATHS.

I HAVE LEARNT MY LESSON ALREADY!

JIAYOU PEEPS!

I FINALLY UNDERSTAND WHY.

SHALL STOP THIS CRAP ALREADY!(:

TIRED!

FLUNK ECONS PAPER 2!(not enough time man..)

GOT REJECTED AGAIN!(HAH!)

OMG!I FEEL DAMN NOOB!!

TIRED!! OMGG.

just need a press on ian!

or a pat on the back,you can do it ian!

STRESS!

thats what you get for last min mugging.

ECONS IS TMR!!OMGG!

MISS MISS MISS!!!

ALL THE BEST PPL!


PS: i give up.

HATED.

JUST CONCENTRATE ON YOUR FREAKING EXAMS IAN!

AHH! TIME IS TICKING FAST!!
left like 4 days, aww man.
GOT LOTS LOTS LOTS MORE TO STUDY!! SAVE ME!!

i saw some light in my organic chem today!
i could actually do basic organic questions without referring already!
HEH!
MORE PRACTISE TOMORROW!!(:

ohh btw. jiaying's name is in the newspaper today! OMG!
wahaha. i needed wayne to sms me before i realised la. although i read the article.
you suck la ian. hahah.
why am i like more excited than her.

4 more days!! Jiayou peeps!

lol,shocked to recieve that sms today.
i mean. never did i expect this dead blog to be read.
super paiseh too la. omgosh!

anyway, now cannot rant my heart out already.
shall make this into a one way channel to you(:

things have become super different now.
so miss those days a few months ago(:
must be something i did,
i'm such an idiot afterall!

anyways, like i said.
i only have the energy to try my best for alvls!
and try my best to help you,
be behind you all the way!
whether its one-sided,insignificant, or unnecessary,
i don't know. but it will be done!

JyJy and everyone!(:
5 days of MUGGING! here i come!(:

gp paper was rubbish today.
omg,totally can't do ANY of the 5 damn vacab words.
YES,it was that shitty.
rest of the paper was equally shit too.

kfc with the usuals.
studied abit at macs.

i said i wanted to help her.
yet i'm creating more trouble.
letting my rubbish emotions take control of my actions.
letting my impulses take control of my actions.
F MAN.
ian,you should just disappear from the surface of this earth.
the world will be a better place.
i really should stop.

sorry,sorry,sorry.
left 67 days.
F it man.

omg vulgarities non-stop.
i really have to change man.
fffisshh it.(:

teachers' day today.
am filled with gratitude towards each and every one of my teachers.
i know i have not been putting up my utmost effort this year,
but most of you have really been patient and try your best to help us all.
THANKS teachers!

ate at sakae today.
total waste of money la.
spent about 17.50 per person.
but we ate only about 30 plates in total.

went to macs to study with the usuals.
saw this old lady sitting beside us.
i think she sleeps at macs la.
super poor thing.
another old man(not sure if its her husband),
bought her a bottle of 1.5L mineral water and a mc chicken.
i mean really.
if you were there,i bet you would pity that old lady.
i really want to do something for her,
maybe give her some money to buy food or something.
but hmm,i don't have the courage to do so?
or the little money i give will not be significant enough?
i just want to do more,but im just a normal human.
or maybe less than a normal human.
i hate this feeling of helplessness.

its the same with her.
i know shes going through a lot.
i think she is.
i want to believe she is.
but i can't do anything to help her.
i can only sit afar and watch her suffering.
i only can keep her in prayers and hope god would do something.
i really really want to do something.
really really want to help her.
even if its insignificant,
at least i have done something.
at least i have done my best to help her.
but where can i start?
what can i do?
gosh,i really hate this feeling of helplessness man.

i'm never a guy to bottle my emotions.
so yea,to prevent myself from telling the whole world about my worries.
i think this is the best place to shoot it all out.
at least its still confidential as no names are stated.
and well.at least i have an outlet for my rubbish emotions.
k,about here for now.

omg,why is it always during exams when i feel like blogging so much.
aren't i suppose to be mugging hard instead of blogging??
have so much so much so much to study.
don't know where to start,
don't know if my methods will work,
don't know if i will do well for alvls,
don't know if i will do well for prelims,
what if i don't do well for prelims?
will i do well for alvls?
what if i don't do well for alvls?
will i do bad enough to come back to innova for year 3?
if i do well enough not to be allowed back into innova but not into a uni,
will i be able to cope with army life and taking alvls as a private candidate?
so many uncertainties!omg.FUCK IT man.

want to talk to you,
want to bitch to you,
want to hear your voice,
PLEASE....
but its not going to happen.

how can a person survive with so much stress and worries?
hmm,maybe its not alot of stress afterall.

ianHIGH(:
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I am just a normal guy,leading too normal a life.Gentlemanly?maybe a little.Smart?not at all.Handsome?HA!i wish.