Monday, August 31, 2009 @11:16 PM
teachers' day today.
am filled with gratitude towards each and every one of my teachers.
i know i have not been putting up my utmost effort this year,
but most of you have really been patient and try your best to help us all.
THANKS teachers!
ate at sakae today.
total waste of money la.
spent about 17.50 per person.
but we ate only about 30 plates in total.
went to macs to study with the usuals.
saw this old lady sitting beside us.
i think she sleeps at macs la.
super poor thing.
another old man(not sure if its her husband),
bought her a bottle of 1.5L mineral water and a mc chicken.
i mean really.
if you were there,i bet you would pity that old lady.
i really want to do something for her,
maybe give her some money to buy food or something.
but hmm,i don't have the courage to do so?
or the little money i give will not be significant enough?
i just want to do more,but im just a normal human.
or maybe less than a normal human.
i hate this feeling of helplessness.
its the same with her.
i know shes going through a lot.
i think she is.
i want to believe she is.
but i can't do anything to help her.
i can only sit afar and watch her suffering.
i only can keep her in prayers and hope god would do something.
i really really want to do something.
really really want to help her.
even if its insignificant,
at least i have done something.
at least i have done my best to help her.
but where can i start?
what can i do?
gosh,i really hate this feeling of helplessness man.
i'm never a guy to bottle my emotions.
so yea,to prevent myself from telling the whole world about my worries.
i think this is the best place to shoot it all out.
at least its still confidential as no names are stated.
and well.at least i have an outlet for my rubbish emotions.
k,about here for now.
Saturday, August 29, 2009 @11:16 PM
omg,why is it always during exams when i feel like blogging so much.
aren't i suppose to be mugging hard instead of blogging??
have so much so much so much to study.
don't know where to start,
don't know if my methods will work,
don't know if i will do well for alvls,
don't know if i will do well for prelims,
what if i don't do well for prelims?
will i do well for alvls?
what if i don't do well for alvls?
will i do bad enough to come back to innova for year 3?
if i do well enough not to be allowed back into innova but not into a uni,
will i be able to cope with army life and taking alvls as a private candidate?
so many uncertainties!omg.FUCK IT man.
want to talk to you,
want to bitch to you,
want to hear your voice,
PLEASE....
but its not going to happen.
how can a person survive with so much stress and worries?
hmm,maybe its not alot of stress afterall.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009 @10:06 PM
ian is really a noob!
happy birthday germaine han!(:
happy sweet 77th?!HAH.
mug hard all!jyjy!:)
Sunday, August 23, 2009 @7:36 PM
its like 2months to alvls and i'm still blogging?
wow, heh, anyways,i'm just taking a short break from my hw.
it sucks really.
the feeling of having a HUGE exam so near when you are like not even half prepared?
its like waiting to go fight a war when you have not even mastered the use of your weapons?
whats the end result? dying right?
i only have 2 months.
2 months to master CHEM,MATHS,ECONS,BIO,GP.
3 content heavy subjects, 1 which requires tonnes of practice, and 1 well, hmm, is a pass sufficient?
the feeling definitely sucks.
well,thats why i don't want my junior's ending up like me.
encouraging them to start early,
telling them what i'm currently going through,
and how sucky it is.
really. IT SUCKS!
i totally enjoyed my 1.5 years in innova.
pw,ocip,ogl,pre-u sem.
really, totally enjoyed them man!
and well,the price i have to pay for slacking so much is this.
so yup, having fun is not wrong, but studies still have to be done consistently.
am trying my very very best to encourage her to study.
well,it may only be one-sided on my part.
but hmm, my only piorities right now is me doing well for alvls,and she in her promos and alvls.
ah,this may sound like words of a total loser to you guys.
tsk,can't get her to like you,saying words to console yourself, and what not.
heys, foreign talent is in demand in singapore okay!
CHINA is an emerging economy!
what competition do we face in school besides from our fellow singaporeans??
PRC right! tsktsktsk. HAH.
i miss floorball man. in fact,i miss playing any sport.
havn't played anything since PE lessons ended a week ago.
had maths till quite late on friday.
wanted to see if i could play abit of floorball.
guess what!the whole guys floorball team was at the futsal court.
miss tan was like "what are you guys doing here??" HAH!
hmm,visiting our cute junior can??
TSK.hahah,kidding.
anyway,yea. really miss playing a sport.
went to macs to eat with dennis,jerry and wayne. gabriel came out to meet us.
havn't seen him for a week man. he had family matters.
and well,my wish came true.we played a sport.
pool??
MUGMUGMUG. thats what i need to do right now.
TUITION MUG SCHOOL, TUITION MUG SCHOOL. thats about all my life right now.
oh,had to stay back for extra econs tuition with this really cute AJ girl.
and btw, PRETTY/CUTE does not equals to LIKING THAT PERSON!
i don't understand why some people think that way.
if it were so,i would like half of the girl population in the world.
okay,less that half,cause i'm racist!OMG.hahah,some people will get what i mean(:
anyways,back to my story on that really cute girl,
i always thought she was from RJC!tsktsk.but shes NOT! okay.story ended!(:
hahah,hmmmm. no la. cause we ended same time, so had time to have a short conversation with her.
exchanging study techniques, what are we going to do in this last 80 days.
and trust me, shes definitely MUCH MORE prepared than me!
so yea, better buck up IAN!
MATHS,CHEM,BIO,ECONS,GP! I KNOW WHAT I'M GOING TO DO FOR EACH SUB.
and i'm working on it. really hope my method is correct.
time to MUG! gogogo all. jyjy!(: