even after 2 people know they love each other,
still so many problems arise..
i always like lending a listening ear to my friends,
hearing them tell me about their rs.
the problems they face,
they happy times they share.
others enjoy romance movies and dramas, where it always ends with a happy ending,
i enjoy them too,
but i definitely enjoy these real life experiences even more!
not because i'm kaypo, i also really do care for my friends!

i don't know why i keep thinking of you.
others say this is a crush, an infatuation.
that it will not last..
but i really don't know..
i keep thinking of you, i miss you dearly when i've not seen you for so long..
the questions people ask me,
like why do i like her? do we have anything in common?
is it just a crush?
even questions that i ask myself..
how long will i like her? can i like her forever?
will i just fall for another princess after a while?
I REALLY DON'T KNOW!
I REALLY REALLY DON'T KNOW!
all i know is i am happy when i think of her.
i want to see her smile, i want her to be happy.
i will do anything as long as she's happy.

perhaps these 2 years will show it.
if i can still love her after this 2 years,
i'll do more after that..

although it may sound abit of a loser..
i'm scared.. i'm not sure what will happen for the next 2 years,
a new lifestyle, others say its tough,
some say its enjoyable,
i personally accept both and think it would be fine as long i get used to it.
but still, i can't help it but to feel scared.
its normal right? like before you take an injection,
you'll feel afraid of the pain..
but during the process, you are braver, you are able to take the pain.
and its not too scary afterall!(:
hope NS would be the same..

i really really miss you.

phuture was imba last night..
SUPER FUN!

it really hurts to miss someone so dearly..
and for a guy who likes to think too much..
it sucks.
i really want to meet you once more before next friday..
i keep getting the feeling that i won't get to see you for the next 2 years.
and when i come out,
you'll be attached and it'll be a whole new you..
omg, i sound like i'm going to jail or something.
but yea, NS is basically a prison.
AH,crap!

the feeling of jealousy really sucks..
it hurts yes it hurts..
stop ignoring me please..:(

wonder when will these emo posts stop.. soon i guess..
feb 5th is coming..

rama is totally right..
but i dont know how to start it.

it hurts.. it really does..

went bugis yesterday with BOB WANG.HAHAH.
yea, was supposed to go to the library to borrow some books.
since i haven't visited iluma, we decided to go for a stroll.
ate some ice-cream! 7 bucks! but it was quite nice.
was joking with him, next time i ever buy it will be when i'm on a date with her!
and he added some gross stuff, what sharing it with her when she has licked it or something, ah he's full of crap.. LOL!

but its quite a cool place!
he was telling me about the cheap jap buffet there, about how many crabs he ate..
shall try it out next time!((:
oh ya, and he went on and on about eh this one not bad, eh pretty!, see,see!..
if only she was there, i would agree!HEH(:

went over to the lib, got some books,
then we trained back to bishan for some so called famous chicken rice near kwok's place.
i felt it was average.
bought some dark chocolate from shopnsave..
ohoh, i have to get the royce chocs soon!(:

every girl is a princess...
every princess has a prince who is always there to make her smile and stay happy!((:

the feeling when tmr's the alvl,
the feeling when an exam is tmr and you are not sure if you have prepared enough for it..
the feeling when you know something will come tmr..
but you are not sure if you are ready and prepared for it..
NS is in 2 weeks! OMG.
I'm so not ready yet.. wonder what will happen inside man..
OKAY, thats not the point of this post..

tmr is SAT! SAT! SAT!
and she is taking it..
she is scared, uncertain, all the feelings i stated above..
i want to do something, but i can't do anything!
useless idiot!
AHH! why am i worried and uneasy like i'm the idiot taking the exam!
gay shit!

FAILED AGAIN!
how many times was it already..
3rd i think..
its ok.. i'll still try again i guess..

OMG went butter AGAIN!
guys there are the worst! HAHAH.
okay.. enough whining!

chocs chocs chocs...
wonder what chocs she likes the most..TSKK.

i am missing her already..
maybe we won't meet again.

dennis is damn right,
i'm really becoming like jerry.

ian attempted to ask her out..
FAILED!

but hmm, for the first time i had the courage to take the next step.
for the first time i felt sad yet happy.
and for the first time,
this strong feeling inside me telling me..
she's the one..

mp3 earphones reading a book!
if only i had a photo of that..heh.

okok, another 2 weeks have passed since i came back from beijing!
fun fun and fun!
went clubbing last wed with fel,noi,iris,te, and the guys..
somehow the first is always the best i guess.
i had so much fun last week!
gabriel that noob dislocated his leg climbing up and down the platform. HAH!
but it was really fun! dancing to the music, drinking..
i so wished we could go clubbing every week!

had countdown chalet organised by jerry!
it was so much fun too! mahjong and movies overnight!
oh i got drunk, they said i was repeating nonsense over and over again! lol.
but the feeling of being dizzy rocks!
its a high feeling and you are not being able to worry about anything!
cause you can't think straight.

went clubbing again last night.
this time with fel,shann,shining,jolyn,fel's two friends, and the guys..
it was alright this time too.
joel is a nice guy after all, not sure why my impression of him made me kind of afraid of him before we met again today.
anyways, yup..

things were kind of wierd, she was kind of avoiding me the whole night.
i tried to protect her, she shifted position,
and she was really close to some guys,
i know its just friends, and its her character to be that friendly to friends,
and i'm nothing to her..
but i still feel fucked up. lol. OMG!
eh, i feel so noob, whining on a blog.
but no worries, its a dead blog, she nor anyone important will find their way here!(:

she's really a very nice girl,
she's really attractive when she has that serious look.
will never forget that few moments in which i was mesmerized by her over the years.
the mp3 earplugs in her ears while reading a book.
if i were good at art, i would capture that moment..
many other moments i guess.
cute sides like today at macs, the way she was tempted by food and all.
she was really cute and funny!

not sure if i will get to see her again.
i really hope i do.
maybe i will have grow the balls to ask her out.
then again she has to agree first right?
ahh gosh! i'm feeling SO FUCKED UP!

ianHIGH(:
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