Sunday, July 29, 2007 @8:35 PM
ok,you've made your point.i'm sorry for being a pest for the past few weeks.i guess i've really done it this time.i guess i have pushed it so far that we can't even be friends now,maybe we weren't friends in the first place,i don't know.who would want to be my friend anyway.a friend of a total loser,a sucker,an asshole.i'm sick of myself.i'm disgusted with myself.i just want to show a little support,just that much i can do,maybe not for you but for those in need yet you rejected it totally.i'm so disappointed.not with you but with myself.i guess a loser shall forever be one.you are forever the goddess.you shall forever be the one whom i look up to.you shall forever be in my heart cause i once loved you.maybe this is not love.but i want to believe that it is love.god was good enough to me,he allowed me to know you.thank you dear lord father.you gave me the chance,guided me.its me who pushed it too far till we can't even maintain a normal friendship.i'm such a loser.fine,i give up on myself,i'm tired.i shall just be far behind looking up at you.seeing you happy shall be my joy,causing you trouble shall be my sins.i shall punish myself if i ever commit these sins again.maybe i'm just not fit to be in this world.i shall be by myself.stay alone forever.