my prelims was a total failure.i dare not say i have done my best but i have worked hard too.and still,my results came out bad.all the 5s added up to a score of 21 points.i really don't know where i can go if this was my olvl's points.everyone is improving,only i am stuck on the spot with this score.

ok,i guess instead of crying over spilt milk,i should work hard for the coming Os in 20 days.yup,i believe we can do it.or at least you can do it.i will do my best.but you are always far ahead of me.

btw,i saw this a few days ago from someone's blog,quite accurate,and fun to read.
i'm a leo,what is yours?

STARS OF LUCK


VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.

SCORPIO - The Intense One
Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional.

LIBRA - The Harmonizer
Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.

ARIES – TheDaredevil
Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge. EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse(easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart
Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique. Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.

GEMINI - The Chatterbox
Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express themselves. Argumentative and outspoken. Likes change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent, But is only changeable. Beautiful physically and mentally.

LEO - The Boss
Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. Doing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive.

CANCER - The Protector
Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, >but sympathetic.

PISCES - The Dreamer
Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details. Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.

CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter
Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimists. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendly at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.

TAURUS - The Enduring One
Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings who are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard - passionate. Express themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous.

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One
Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

got back prelim results.same feeling i had with myself two weeks ago,total disappointment with myself.i did put in effort.maybe not to my very very best but.i'm really a total failure in everything i do.

left 28 days.i've decided to give it my all out.even though i know i'm hopeless,i hope i'll feel better if i did my very very best.

wah,chemistry this saturday,later mrs tan ask my results i will be damn sian.everyone did so well.even her.i really suck.

monday getting back results le.Os is like in 32 days.i suddenly feel so lost.i had an aim 2 weeks ago.though a high aim but at least it kept me going.even if i don't make the aim i know i did my best.but suddenly,i don't know where i'm heading.

dad said something today which really made me worried.he said his company had a job vacancy for a packer,earning about $700 a month.and alot of people called to apply,many were malay women.but i think only one could be chosen.so well,its kind of sad right.you have to try so hard even to find a job,and very disappointing when you failed to do so.so i guess we all have to study real hard now,if we want to be able to have an easier time finding a job.

and then again i think of myself.a really hopeless guy.who not only hurt others but also himself.i really hate myself.but i guess,i still have about 50 more years to live.so i should really watch what i do.

today tuitioned whole day,damn sian.damn tired.mrs ong,mavis,chemistry.but o well,left 30 days.must work hard.was in the car thinking about how fast olvls is coming.and thinking of about another 4 more lessons no more chemistry le.i can't help but to feel a little sad lah.but well,i promised myself,i will get lost.i won't give trouble to anyone.so well,i dont know,i'm just being emo over nothing?hmm.anyway,all i want is you and everyone around me to always stay happy.everything else not important.

hmm,tomorrow churchie.havnt been attending for 2 weeks cause of prelims.i know its not fit to be an excuse but i really want to do well.but i have been praying.but a guy like me....no comments.

supposed to be studying,but well,decided to take a short break and blog a little,cause tomorrow bio mcq,not so stressed.

studied and slacked whole weekend and well,through this two weeks cause i have prelims.monday's amaths paper was a killer alright.it was super hard!at least to me.omg,i think this is the first time in my life i am going to fail maths,and it has to be one of my important examination,thats sad.haiz,all i can do now is work extra hard for my olvls.

went mrs ng on monday,she said she 1.30 then reach la,so i went with joel,jf,sam,ks to sing post kfc eat.then i went parkway to walk walk.i didn't expect tution to be so late la,so i didnt bring anything to study.anyways,i finally bought my Gundam Seed Destiny Box 3&4!!i actually intended to just buy box 3,cause i thought it was U.P at $39.90 per box.but woots lah,it was half price,$20 each!i ended up buying both.so lucky!cause i only had enough for 1 if it was U.P.=Xanyways,so happy....its really a super good anime!best on my anime list actually.

anyway,yup.think i should go revise a little bit more before sleeping.good luck all.

this whole week my prelims,was studying and doing other stuffs,didn't really feel like blogging anyway.its something i have to accept and i know its best this way yet i can't accept it,i suck lah ok.

anyway,last friday met with xdong,qxiong,hkwang,shuyun,mr wong.supposed to be more lah,but everyone busy studying for prelims,ps us.haiz,so anyway,mr wong treat us to pizza hut.damn yummy lah,and we were like being childish there.cause got this waitress quite chio,to xdong lah at least,then he was like trying to be funny,he needed tobasco sauce or how you spell it,then he go ask the guy waiter nearest to us to call that waitress come,lol,damn funny lah.but we were like super pai seh.haha,mr wong also,people see him sit together with us also think he like us so childish.haha,anyway,it was fun.they were like telling alot of jokes(cold ones).yup.after eating,we left le lor,cause not many people came,mr wong and shuyun decided to go home.xdong had tuition.i went with hkwang and qxiong to kpool go play pool.my first time,but super fun!!will no be my last.after Os everyday go play!hehe.

and well,saturday,i know its not a big deal la,its nothing to begin with,all i wanted is another friend,right?i guess i really suck lah,my EQ is a negative value!i really hate myself now.not only do i hurt others around me,i hurt myself too.i guess a guy like me really suck and don't deserve to live in this world.i really want to apologise for all the trouble i caused,yet i know i should not,cause you told me right in my face.i really don't know what to do.

prelims.was quite ok bah,i hope.next week left 4 papers.maths and science mcqs.hope i can do alright.jia you bah everyone.i know you all can do it.

i know i should not be bloggin this.

i am feeling very down right now.im not sure why but.its not as if its something big but i feel heavy.its seriously heavy this time.i'm pain.i really don't like this feeling.but it just came and won't go.

i didn't know it will freak you out.i really don't know what to say.I'm really sorry.i know its uselss writing it here cause you wont read it,but i seriously dont know how to reach you.i did not think it would be so serious.i'm really sorry.i

wah!today is the best day in my life sia!heh:))

OK!I'VE DECIDED!I WILL STUDY MY HARDEST FOR THIS 47 DAYS.

IM SHOCK THAT ITS ACJC.BUT SO BE IT.ACJC SHALL BE IT.
er,i think its acjc,or is it vjc?omg!i 4gt!
but anyway,both are like so "high" can.
but since thats the aim,i'll work for it too.

47 days left for studying,will i make it?

Ian -- [noun]: A Dumbass; A Retard; A Loser. :)) 'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

hmm,was doing some lame stuffs.found this somewhere along with a few quizzes,like the how smart and how stupid you are tests and one not sure what career inventory test or smth.quite fun to do la.xDD

past few days was kinda short.had mrs ng and mavis on friday.had mrs ong yesterday.spent rest of my time studying+slacking.well,next week september holidays.hope i can keep to my schedule of 1 chem,1 bio,1 topic of ss,1 topic of geog a day.including all my tuitions.this holi will be fully packed.but after holis is my prelims.i really don't have a choice.yup,working hard now means i'm studying hard for my Os too.so i shall sacrifice all my time for this 50 days.

if i rmb correctly.its 50 days till my first Olvl paper.yup,gotta work extra extra harder.

today is churchie day!:))we were discussing the meaning of having holy communion.related to the last supper and so on.next week we joining normal service to experience holy communion.but i think we can't try the wine and biscuit.firstly cause we have not baptised,secondly we are underage,lol.anyways,would be a good experience i guess.as usual,i think i am the only one who did not know much about the last supper.well,firstly i am a new christian,then this year Os year super busy,don't have much time have detailed study of the bible.hope i can do more after Os.today,hannah was half the time telling jokes that were supposed to be funny,erm.at least to herself.lol.hmm,i sound abit mean.fine!they were funny.i have to admit i giggled abit.anyway,fun to be able to see my church di shiong jie meis.yup,looking forward to church camp in nov holis.i think its a camp together with the 1723s.that will be so cool,i know it will be fun too.

asked sonia whether she wanted study at sing post mac tmr,she haven't replied but i'm going anyway.cause i have mrs ng at 2,and i foresee that i can acomplish more anywhere but home.yup,hope i can survive this 1 week:DD

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