Monday, January 28, 2008 @8:54 PM
still not sure of my choice yet.
have lots to consider..
but i'm glad many friends are staying.
place my complete faith in the lord.
can i do it?
depend on the lord whenever troubled.
can i do it?
every answer is in the bible,i just have to read for it.
can i do it?
i really don't understand why i am like this.
giving myself unnecessary problems.
causing trouble for others too.
i really don't know why did i have to do it last sunday.
is it a test from the lord?
i tried to see it as a test from the lord,
but i think i'm just using it as an excuse to cover my wrongs.
regreting is of no use.
but i have no ability to turn the situation for the better.
i really hope the lord can guide me.
i have this feeling i'm just making everything worst.
i really hate myself,my life.
i feel real empty,real lost.
living for the sake of living.
i want to live for something.
thats why i like to help.
but it sometimes turns out unexpectedly.
ok,i know this is a whole load of crap.
ohyes,i finally heard something today.
i always thought i was the only one,
hoping for someone to study with,
to depend on,to attend lectures with,
but i found someone with the same thinking.
ok,so i guess i'm not adnormal.
or maybe both of us are adnormal.
sorry is a very easy word to say.
i guess you will be sick of hearing it already.
i should not have did it in the first place.
i am just a pathetic guy...