Sunday, January 27, 2008 @4:43 PM
can't decide whether to stay in innova.
there is no really really strong reason for me to stay,
neither is there a really really strong reason to leave.
argh...i hate this too...
why must god put me through so many tests.
i'm so scared i will regret my choice after i end up wherever.
i feel innova is a real nice place to study in.
that i'm very sure of as i have personally experienced it.
but will it be the same after JAE?
i'm really not sure.
and its really damn pissing alright.
its already so long!
i know i'm the one at fault,but...
aiyo,i really wish i could just die,lol.
bio test next week,hmm,im only half prepared.
so should i stay in IJ or not?!
it already the last day to submit...
hmmmmm.
ohyes,today's sermon was very inspiring.
i really felt truth in those words pastor er,
i'm not sure his name.
but hes a real nice and cool pastor.
anyways,back to today's sermon.
i can't really remember the exact details,
as my mind was also elsewhere.
so i remembered vaguely the important parts.
it was about how god made miracles.
about the bread rained for the Egyptians for 40 years.
teaching us that god gives us everything for free,
although we are sinners.
i really agree that i am a sinner.
but after i became a christian,
i begin to notice my sins.
i begin to try not to commit those sins.
though i still do and i really ask for forgiveness.
then he went on explaining the tests god set for us.
the importance of the bible.
the importance of not only be a sunday christian.
and that we should receive the lord into us.
i really felt truth in this words today.
yes,i shall try put all my faith in the lord.
and hope he can guide me to make the right choices.
and guide me to solve my present and future problems.
i'm really not sure if i am making things worst now.
i have just too many things in my mind.
too many choices to make,
and which i am afraid to make too.