Monday, August 31, 2009 @11:16 PM
teachers' day today.
am filled with gratitude towards each and every one of my teachers.
i know i have not been putting up my utmost effort this year,
but most of you have really been patient and try your best to help us all.
THANKS teachers!
ate at sakae today.
total waste of money la.
spent about 17.50 per person.
but we ate only about 30 plates in total.
went to macs to study with the usuals.
saw this old lady sitting beside us.
i think she sleeps at macs la.
super poor thing.
another old man(not sure if its her husband),
bought her a bottle of 1.5L mineral water and a mc chicken.
i mean really.
if you were there,i bet you would pity that old lady.
i really want to do something for her,
maybe give her some money to buy food or something.
but hmm,i don't have the courage to do so?
or the little money i give will not be significant enough?
i just want to do more,but im just a normal human.
or maybe less than a normal human.
i hate this feeling of helplessness.
its the same with her.
i know shes going through a lot.
i think she is.
i want to believe she is.
but i can't do anything to help her.
i can only sit afar and watch her suffering.
i only can keep her in prayers and hope god would do something.
i really really want to do something.
really really want to help her.
even if its insignificant,
at least i have done something.
at least i have done my best to help her.
but where can i start?
what can i do?
gosh,i really hate this feeling of helplessness man.
i'm never a guy to bottle my emotions.
so yea,to prevent myself from telling the whole world about my worries.
i think this is the best place to shoot it all out.
at least its still confidential as no names are stated.
and well.at least i have an outlet for my rubbish emotions.
k,about here for now.